Hi, im new here. sorry this is my first thread, so bear with me please.
My name is joel, I am 21 years old, and I recently had a scary occurrence this past Saturday night.
I went to a party with my girlfriend at her friend's house. There weren't a lot of people there yet, only about 3 other people. They were very nice and hospitable, especially the home owner. Before the party we bought some beer. (I rarely drink BTW.) I bought a drink called "double bastard" I never put my drink down at the party, so it rules out the case of someone putting something in it.
I was getting very tired, and I was pretty disoriented. so I went with my girlfriend to the living room where no one was, so I could rest on the couch. As I lay there, I remember not wanting her to leave the room. at least for a few minutes, but her friends were waiting, and she wanted to get back to the party. She left the room, and as soon as she had left me, as I watched her walk out I began to cry, a few minutes later the home owner came in to check up on me. (I had only cried a little bit at this point.) He had asked me if I wanted him to turn the light off, or if I wanted a bed to sleep on. I refused, and he only turned the light off for me. When he approached to do so, I covered my face with my jacket that I was using as a blanket at the time. I didnt want him to to see that there were tears on my face.
Soon after he left the room, my girlfriend came into the room. I was so glad to see her, I imediately sat up. (I was happy to see her.) She walked over and asked me if I was ok. I hugged her around the waist, and said I didnt want you to leave. I began to cry more and more intensly. I was making more noise and more tears. She did what she could to comfort me, just hold me and speak softly, but it was getting bad. She asked me if I wanted to go. She had been drinking too, and it would not be a good idea for us both to leave, and drive home. She felt it was best to do, but I felt bad for her, because I know she wanted to be with her friends, but she felt I was more important.
We left the party. when we got in the car, things got REALLY bad! I was sitting there and the crying grew more intense. I was almost screaming. by body was always rigid. I couldn't control my breathing. and my limbs couldn't be controlled. I was freaking out! As we were driving she would ask me to calm down. I tried to control my breathing and it would work for about 5 seconds, then suddenly breath would shoot into my lungs and I would hyperventilate and cry even more intensely. She tried to talk to me, let me know where we were. Nothing helped.
We had to stop and get gas at one point. She went into the royal farms, and had asked her to get me some water. While she was in there my freakout still continued. She looked horrorfied to see me convulsing and screaming in the car. I was getting very hungry and and sweaty, from all the movement. We got our gas, and left as soon as possible. Things didn't get any better. My sporadic movement was so bad. I cracked her dash board by accident, and crushed a class cup she had in her car with my foot. I had no control over what my body and voice was doing. I know that when I wasn't convulsing everywhere I would be holding and hugging my girlfriend.
My body was always tense and my fingernails were almost always embedded in something. It lasted for about an hour and whenever I seemed to be calming down I would explode into an emotional rampage! We parked in front of my house, and were thinking of taking a walk or something but I didn't want to wake up the neighbors so we stayed in the car.
I tried to kiss her a little bit, but I was not able to do it for long before I would hyperventilate and start freaking out again. Tthen she started to touch me in a sexual way. and something in my brain just clicked and as soon as I was turned on I wasn't sad or breathing weird or anything. We went back into the house, and we were going to have sex, but we were just too tired. We got naked and went to sleep.
The next day a was very sore from all the tense movement. and I was horny when I woke up but when it wore off, I got sad again. For the rest of the day I would want to cry when I was away from my girlfriend.
What the hell happened to me? Someone please help me! (BTW please forgive my poor spelling).