the more i think about it, the more it bothers me. i've been insecure for as far back as i can remember. i find i am constantly trying to guess how i should react or behave around other people. i try to zoom in on expectations and then try to live up to them. i panic when i think i can't.
the problem is this is really becoming exhausting. this constant fear of saying the wrong thing or making the wrong move. the fear of making mistakes and having people thing less of me as a result.
i'm getting really tired of this but i can't seem to keep the worry at bay. i feel useless when i do something i perceive as having been a mistake. i put so much thought into things that when this then happens it's distressing to me.
how do i get over this "habit" and stop being this way?