my best friend moved away 5 months ago, though she did not want to. or said she did not. We are both adults (in our 30's) Since that time I have felt pushed away and tossed aside. she said she was going to try it where she was for a year and if things were not good move back. Here is the thing. We used to talk all the time on the phone, several times a day. she told me that she never had a BF until she met me. (we have only been close friends for 2 years). She said I helped her like no one else, etc. When she was debating on weather to move or not we talked about things before she moved and she even asked me what I thought would happen to "us" if she moved. i said just what I thought would happen, we would go from being close and talking daily til we started drifting away. she said we would not. so she knows how I feel. It is weird, she as always said that she pushes people away. I just cant get that.
one week it is like she wants to talk to me lots and then one week she acts as if she dont. But yet she will fuss cause I dont call her. I dont because everytime I do i feel I get the blow off and I have told her that. so what is the deal with that? why would she push away someone she says has helped her an made her feel more confidance about herself than anyone? Any clues to this? when is she like this and why do I keep feeling so pushed away?