i have bulemia and i need help. it started off about 7 months ago as something really little...like i only did it with a small amount of food because i had just discovered that i could. after a few weeks it started getting more frequent, i started eating with the intention of throwing it up. i didnt think i had a problem though. it seemed under control...like i could stop at anytime. then it started getting worse. i was throwing up meals because i felt like i had to. i was (and still am) eating huge amounts of food and throwing it up. it now feels out of my control. like i cant stop. and i really really want to. i dont want to be like this forever. my mum found out about it and she spoke to me but i just lied and said i didnt do it often...not because i didnt want help but because i didnt want HER to think i had a problem. after a few more weeks i told her i needed help but she hasnt done anything about it...i dont know whether she thinks that i am cured or something just because she doesnt see me doing it but i am not cured and i have a problem. i dont understand why i do this, but i dont think there is some underlying phsycological disorder - i have body image problems but i am not interested in self harm.
i dont know what to do but i know i need help.