Has anybody here tried rTMS therapy for depression yet?
No, I don't have access to any psychotherapy at the moment Dr. Baxter. As I mentioned, I do have an appointment with a psychiatrist in mid-November, but that's about it. And, to be honest, I'm not optimistic about this upcoming appointment, either.
This will be my fourth psychiatrist. The first two that I went to wound up saying that I was "at the point where they would refer me back to my family physician". I rejected the third one I went to, I just pretty much hated him. This fourth one is going to wind up asking about my meds, the impact that depression is having on my life, and that'll be it. He may adjust my dosage, but I truly doubt there will be any offer for cognitive behaviour therapy forthcoming. He just won't have the time available, considering that even with a referral from my GP, it took them over a month just to call me to book an appointment for a month after that!
My understanding is that unlike a psychiatrist, a general therapist would not be covered by OHIP, even with a referral. Any idea if that's correct? Like many people with long-time depression, I haven't exactly risen to the top of my profession, so money is always an issue.
I was looking through other threads, and the one about cognitive distortions was interesting. I realize that if I've had depression since I was 14, that many of my beliefs and attitudes will be unneccesarily negative. This would be learned behaviour; it would continue even if the chemical imbalances in my brain were fixed today. I know it's a word you try to avoid in psychiatry, but much of my core belief system is probably "wrong". Or, at least, distorted through experience.
I've mentioned cognitive behaviour therapy to my GP, and to at least one of the psychiatrists that I've had. Other than one session in a really bizarre therapy group, my Dr's seem to have this attitiude of fixing the chemicals in my brain through pharmacology, and that my thinking and beliefs are none of their concern. I personally believe that if a person has enough negativity, no amount of anti-depressants will be able to overcome it for long. As I said in my first post, I suspect that I have dysthymia, which would require a lot more talk therapy in my opinion.
It's funny: for most of my life since I've gotten depression, the "specialists", the psychiatrists, have pretty much treated me like I should get out of their offices and let them help somebody that has real problems. Which is, in my opinion, why so many people (especially men) don't seek help for depression. If the professional attitiude towards the illness is not enlightened, how can we be expected to beg for help?
The road to recovery begins with the assumption that you have a right to be you. It ends when you realize that you want to be.