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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    For years, I've felt alone, constantly questioning why I'm even here. I never can figure it out to the point where I'm happy enough that I don't feel like this. And lately, has been the extreme of it.

    Every time something good goes on in my life, soon enough either that, or five other things go wrong. And it takes me forever to turn them around or wait for something good to come along. It hurts so much that often I've debated on either running away from everything and disappearing, or ending it all.. So much so that I've not only scared my boyfriend/friend but also one of my best friends who has seen the depression I have been going through. When I talk about it with my boyfriend, he has to literally pin me down to get the pills out of my hand or take the scissors away from me when it's still in the thought stages. He also tries to stop me from leaving whenever I want to just run away and go somewhere where I don't feel like an outsider. Strange thing is, I don't understand why he does this.... especially after telling me that he wants to break up with me which brings even more pain into an already distressed and upsetting life. It's not because of our breakup why I feel so pushed to these thoughts but more everything combined.

    Even now, while I'm sitting here writing this, I'm in tears, holding onto my teddy bear that I've had as a comfort blanket for years.

    I don't know what to do anymore. I've tried talking to doctors, and counsellors but it doesn't help. And lately, I've felt like I'm fighting my own will to stay alive. But I'm gradually losing the war. I need help.
    They say life is a highway.. what happens when you hit a dead end?

  2. #2

    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope


    A relationship breakup is a difficult time to go through. Especially when you are dealing with other tough stuff too! You will make it through this, Angel.

    Do you have a therapist right now? Have you seen one recently?

    Hug your bear to sleep and check in with us in the morning. We are hear for you. If you are feeling really bad right now right call a crisis phone line and talk to someone.

    Northern B.C./Cariboo
    Williams Lake - Crisis and Counselling Program Crisis Line 250-398-8224
    Prince George -
    Prince George Crisis Intervention Society Crisis Line 1-888-562-1214
    Teen Crisis Line 1-888-564-8336
    Houston to the Queen Charlotte Islands, and north to the B.C./Yukon border, including Burns Lake, Mackenzie and Fort St. James
    Crisis Line 24 hours 1-888-562-1214
    Teen Crisis Line 24 hrs 1-888-564-8336
    Quesnel - G.R.Baker Memorial Hospital-Quesst Unit
    Crisis Line 250-992-9414
    Fraser Lake -
    Fraser Lake Crisis Line Crisis Line 250-699-6315
    OKANAGAN/KOOTENAY Penticton - Summerland - Oliver - Osoyoos - Princeton
    Penticton & Area Crisis Line Crisis Line 250-493-6622
    Vernon - Salmon Arm - Revelstoke Pin Crisis Line
    Crisis Line/Teen Line Crisis Line 250-545-2339
    Cranbrook - Community Action Centre Crisis Line 250-426-8407
    Serving the entire East Kootenay region, from Golden to the Alberta and USA borders. Crisis Line 24 hours 1-800-667-8407
    Kelowna - Westbank - Winfield - Lake Country
    Kelowna Community Resources Crisis Line 250-763-9191
    Trail - Rossland Crisis Line 250-364-1718
    Serving the West Kootenay and Boundary regions, including Nelson, New Denver, Nakusp, Salmo, Grand Forks, Caltlegar & Christina Lake -
    West Kootenay-Boundary Regional Crisis Line 1-800-515-6999

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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    Thanks.. I know it's going to be really hard.. especially living about a block or so away from him and wanting to come over alot of the time. I just don't really know what to do ever and it's so hard..

    To answer your question, I've seen theripists in the past but I haven't been able to contact one right now. I've tried making appointments but seems like I keep hitting dead ends.

    I'm really scared. I don't know what is coming next and it scares me to know that I have such a challenge ahead of me. I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to handle it.
    They say life is a highway.. what happens when you hit a dead end?

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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    Angel, have you tried any of those crisis lines posted by Heart Art? If not, we'll dig a little deeper for you. Send me a private message with your location (city/town) and I'll see what I can find for you.

    Also, do you have a family doctor? If so, ask him/her for a referral -- he may know of someone taking new referrals.

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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    Angel, when you hit a dead end of the highway, a new road must be started. It may only start as a narrow trail and someone stronger at the moment may have to break it ahead of you, but it will lead you to new discoveries along the way. (Glad you're along on the journey with us!)

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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    Angel, sometimes our "teady bears" that we have to hold can help comfort us. Have you talked to anyone?? I do hope you try some of these phone numbers or send your info to Dr. Baxter. Please be safe and know that there are so many others that want to help you and see you become well. Get the help you deserve and keep us posted if possible.

    Sending you my best wishes and my thoughts are with you....


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    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    Hi Angel;

    I have always loved stories that inspire. Your post reminded me of a story about an old man and a butterfly.

    Once upon a time, an old man was walking through the forest. He was a kind man who loved everyone and everything, and was loved in return. On that one day, he came across a cocoon and noticed that it was moving, for it had a butterfly growing inside. He picked it up and took it home with him to care for it.

    After few days, he noticed that the cocoon was moving a lot, as if there was a struggle inside. Feeling sorry for the butterfly, he opened the cocoon setting it free. But to his shock, the butterfly fell out, looking lifeless, crumpled, and gray. Fearing he has hurt it, he quickly put the butterfly back inside the cocoon and sealed it with honey.

    The next day, he noticed that it was moving again. Relieved and concerned, he watched closely. Few hours later the cocoon opened and out came out a beautiful butterfly, spreading her beautiful wings with vibrant colors. The man watched with pride as he cheered for it to fly. The butterfly did just that and flew away. The man was so proud and happy, but still wondered why it almost died when he tried to help.

    He searched for the answer and found it. The answer was that butterflies are made fragile but the struggle inside the cocoon is what made them strong. The breaking through made their wings strong and beautiful enabling them to fly.

    So sweetie, don’t give up, you’re simply breaking through the “cocoon”. I will second and third the suggestions made by HeartArt and Dr.Baxter. Please call someone so that they can make sure you’re all right, just like the old man did with the butterfly.

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    I hope you are right.

    I hope you all are right.. I've had so much trouble trying to get past these thoughts and feelings and it's been so difficult. My heart wants to give up so many times.. and Guy (my kind-of bf) tries so hard to help me but inside I question everything..

    Especially lately.. I've just had to go into the hospital for tests on my heart to see if my heart condition has come back.. Guy came to the hospital with me but I was so paranoid walking around there.. Hospitals freak me out. and I really didn't want to get the bloodwork. But he tried to stay by my side, which helped.

    I hope that sometime soon I can figure this out. I really need to. I'm scared.
    They say life is a highway.. what happens when you hit a dead end?

  9. #9

    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    {{{{Hugs for you and your heart, Angel!}}}}
    You will make it through this.

  10. #10

    Feeling like I'm at the end of my rope

    I hope so Heart.. I really hope so.. I am getting so scared lately that I've ended up in the hospital for tests to find out why my seizures are getting worse by the day and they seem to think that it's related to my panic attacks..
    They say life is a highway.. what happens when you hit a dead end?

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