Hi, Dragonfall - I'm Andrew. I realise this is a late post - I stumbled across your post a few hours ago. May I ask - Are you male or female? I had a similar experience. From a young child, I had a mixed fascination with balloons - delight, but a wariness (even at times fear) of them busting. At about 15, I started buying balloons just to blow up and bust. When I finally overcame my fear, I felt great and I wanted to repeat the experience. Since then, I enjoy busting them.