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    In my introduction thread, I mentioned that I am 'supposedly' DID. I said supposedly because I don't believe or accept the diagnosis.

    I started therapy over a year ago, my life was completely out of control. Within the first 3 sessions I was diagnosed with PTSD. I wasn't really sure what PTSD was, but once I read all the info I could find, I realized the diagnosis fit. I accept that.

    But DID, on the other hand, is something I just can't come to terms with. I just can't grasp how a person could live with that kind of disorder and not have a clue. How could I NOT know something like that? How could my kids and my husband not know? How could something like that go unnoticed?

    My therapist keeps telling me it's clearly DID, and I keep telling him he's wrong. How do I know whether to even trust him?

    How do I even attempt accepting this diagnosis?

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    Why does your therapist believe DID applies to you? And what sort of therapist is s/he?

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    He's a psychologist.

    I'm assuming he has based his diagnosis on my symptoms/experiences and what he has observed.

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    I just can't grasp how a person could live with that kind of disorder and not have a clue. How could I NOT know something like that? How could my kids and my husband not know? How could something like that go unnoticed?
    I ask because I wonder about this part of your post. Have you asked your psychologist these questions?

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    Perhaps your therapist was thinking along these lines.
    There is a great deal of overlap of symptoms and experiences among the several Dissociative Disorders, including DID. Some people who may not qualify for a specific diagnosis may, nevertheless, have problems with dissociation.
    Sidran: Help for Post Traumatic Stress (PTSD) and dissociation.

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    It just seems to me that if a person is DID, others would be able to definitely notice the 'different' personalities. My husband and kids know I have severe mood swings, and that I act different at times, but have never flat out said they are 'different personalities'. My T. seems to think most people wouldn't be able to make that distinction unless they were educated on DID., and to most it would just seems like mood swings.

    I do know I dissociate. I do know I feel different at times. I do know I act different at times too. But it's like I'm observing myself, like I'm not in control of what I say and do at times.

    I also have times where I don't remember what I have said or done until later, sometimes right afterwards and sometimes not for hours or days.

    I guess I was under the assumption that DID is exactly like the movie Sybil....or even the show 'United States Of Tara'. 'If' this is DID, it's nothing like either of those.

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    Quote Originally Posted by Lost_In_Thought View Post
    It just seems to me that if a person is DID, others would be able to definitely notice the 'different' personalities.
    I'm inclined to agree. I also think that DID is erroneously over-diagnosed personally, although of course I am not in a position to dispute your psychologist's diagnosis in your case or in any specific case.

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    Yesterday I said "it sounds like you're trying to convince me that it's DID", and he said "well you sound like you don't want to believe it". I told him of course I don't want to believe it, who would want to.

    Sometimes I feel like it's what HE wants, maybe out of boredom....maybe trying to make a name for himself....maybe he has intentions of writing a book or something.

    Yet, at the same time, my life is pretty chaotic and I HAVE to get control of 'whatever' this is.My job is in jeopordy because I keep saying/doing things I don't wanna say and do. My marriage is in turmoil, everything is a mess. I almost feel like I have to accept the diagnosis in order to get some kind of help.

    Something is definitely wrong. Something has been my entire life. I'm just not sure what it is exactly.

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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    That seems a bit ridiculous that you have to accept that part right away and that it seems to be a condition that he continues your therapy... Is that what you are saying? Or am I misunderstanding?

    Can you ask him to revisit this notion of DID later on, and work on other things for the time-being? If he sees you long enough, maybe it will enter his head that you don't have DID or just have some small overlapping symptoms of it with your other symptoms, like Yuray was saying. If he has proof everytime you visit that you don't exhibit these symptoms he claims you must have, perhaps time is all you need to convince him. That's if you are reluctant to leave him -- on the other hand, why not try a second opinion?
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    Re: Don't Know How To Accept This

    on the other hand, why not try a second opinion?
    I was wondering the same thing. I would consider a therapist pushing a DID diagnosis as a red flag.

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