I'm a bit scared

[Lonewolf]

Tonight, I did something I have been so frightened of doing for years and years! I rang 'rape crisis' to make appointment to start counseling! I have been attending a mental health based group for a while and have been appointed a worker! Had a meeting with her and briefly told her what has been my main struggles! I saw her again tonight and she had the information for the local 'rape crisis', I rang them with her support and I now need to wait for a therapist to become available! I have very mixed emotions about all of this , mainly nervous! This worker also thinks I need the help of the mental health service, but I am not so happy about that because I don't want to trust them just so that they can drop me like a sack of **** when they feel like it? (has happened to me once!) I couldn't cope with that again!!

Just need help to calm myself down if that's ok? got myself a bit worked up!

[Steve]

It probably took a great deal of courage on your part to make such an important decision, which should help you progress to regain control of your life, your moods and your emotions.

I would urge you to follow the advice of the person who is assisting you without forming preconceived ideas of what might happen. Concern yourself with getting the help you need, working toward getting better, and if any changes occur, deal with them as they come along.

Worrying about what might happen inevitably causes our thinking to imagine the worst possible scenario.

In the meantime, give yourself a pat on the back and take satisfaction for making this first step toward your recovery.

[MHealthJo]

Oh my gosh, I am thrilled! I am so, so happy and proud of you, honey!!
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Yes, Steve's advice is excellent. Deal with things when and if they come. Chat here if worries or foreboding come, and maybe we can talk you through them.

So proud of you, this is a big and positive step. I hope some of the fear can subside a little so you can feel a little of the pride you deserve in taking a new positive step. xoxo

[forgetmenot]

Wow hun you did great you deserve to get all the support you can

Perhaps you can talk to your councilor about the fear of being dropped that way you can get reassurance that it won't happen hugs

[Lonewolf]

I just can't wash it off! I feel disgusting! I wish I could grow a whole new skin! I haven't started the therapy yet and I don't know when its going to start, things are so tough, I wish it had!! Since requesting it and saying out load some of the things that have happened, so many memories and feelings have been flooding to the surface and im struggling to cope with them on my own! I normally feel safe hiding under my duvet, but not at the moment! I don't know if its appropriate to say why, but I will say it doesn't seem safe anymore! im sorry

[forgetmenot]

thereeper please call the office and tell them how you are feeling and see if they can fit you in sooner if there is a cancellation or something if not still leave a msg with therapist stating how you are feeling ok and that you need hellp as soon as possible hugs

[Lonewolf]

I will try!!

[MHealthJo]

Thinking of you mate.....

Don't forget Lifeline/Samaritans etc if things get bad... or talk to us some more here....xox

[Lonewolf]

Told today that i need to wait 6 more months for a therapist to become available apparently!! At least the medication is numbing any emotions I have been overwhelmed with!! I can't really think straight with these pills, but maybe that's a good thing?? I haven't really dealt with past or present issues but at least I don't feel anything anymore!! In fact, I am very dopey at the moment!!

[Harebells]

Hi Lonewolf, wow that's such a long wait. Sorry to hear that when you were so brave to ask for help. How do you feel about it? Do you know if there are any low cost counselling places near you or anything so you could at least get some support in the mean time? (sorry if you've said any of this on other threads already, I'm really new here). By the way I know that feeling of being dropped like a sack of *** by mental health services - it's the worst! Anyway I'm in the same time zone as you (!) and around for a bit if you want to chat/vent.