I seem to have two different personalities, one good the other bad. I am good around everyone I meet know etc. But when I am alone Mr Hyde comes to visit. When driving I get mad at bad drivers and bawl them out. If I am in a store I say nothing and bawl them out in my mind. I guess one cannot be good twenty four seven? I am a loner when by myself, yet I wonder why? I love all when I meet them and judge them when alone. I understand the word (perfect), but being perfectly human all the time has got to have it's ups and downs, are we are not human.
Could be we are created with this humanity thought of good and bad for a reason? I am always checking in with my mind because I believe that is where my consciousness is to me. I question my reasons for being good and bad. It seem we do have a bad side, whether we like it or not. It is either God given or circumstances we our self have taken upon our self or for what ever reason. I know I cannot live my self and if I lose my wife I will put myself in a retirement home, so as not to be alone. Just a thought. high strung