I wish I could've turned this post into a walloping praise about how much I learned about psychology from lurking here, or at the very least, how far it's taken me from the belief that it was just a pseudo-science... I also wish I wouldn't have to write this at 1 AM, in the sixth month of a struggle that ought to have started and finished many years ago. The truth is that right now, problems seem to be piling up on top of me. I've been trying to unravel the most serious issue - a clutch of neurological and other symptoms - before receiving a half-hearted diagnosis from a general practicioner. She thinks I have conversion disorder.
Thanks to one of my other problems, I can't afford to visit a psychiatrist right now, so it looks as if I'll have to treat myself. I found no information on the disease, but I was hoping someone here would know... How can I cure this (if I'm realy suffering from conversion disorder) without expert assistance, and without medication? I understand that stress, or rather, stressful conflicts trigger it... This is a problem, as I've had many conflicts in my life, and some appear hardy enough to last my whole life. This might sound strange, but what's the proportion of people who got cured without having to go about "fixing" their lives?
I've got my baccalaureate exams coming, and several of my symptoms have kept me from preparing for them. I doubt the exams are a source of stress, but I can't seem to get myself to read the schoolbooks anymore! I rarely get more than half an hour's worth of studying before the symptoms reappear and force me to quit. My gamer's addiction came back to me while my true love -interactive fiction- kept withering away in dusty, unused text documents... There's a three-year-old project I kept working on until last winter, and I had to quit it because of the disease. Needless to say, ick!