I have been emotional all my life especially negative. Today I am extremely emotional because of my wife and my problems. I have changed, yet I do not understand the change from negativity to my emotions. I like the new me, which is extroverted and not introverted and it makes me wonder how that happened? I love everyone faults and all, when before I judged all, now I don't. I can see (to a point) our suffering with our different, health problems, but they the problems are more than I can take because I personally feel I do not deserve them or neither my wife. Curious.