Greetings: I have degenerative disk disease which causes periodic pain in my lower back and sciatic nerve pain. After experiencing pain for a few weeks, I contacted my internist who instructed me to go to Urgent Care. After re-thinking the best way to help me, he instructed me to go to ER. I fussed and fumed because of experiences I had with medical personnel and particularly women. I was molested by a woman as a child and still suffer when I encounter women in close proximity. Additionally, when ER personnel have viewed my history and have tried to engage me on same, my defenses go through the roof and I feel so much shame and anger that I need to defend myself and portray that bipolar does not define me.
So, this time, I asked my doctor could pave the way and ensure that I only had male medical personnel, I would go to ER. My experience in ER continues to solidify my trust in my doctor opening doors for me being more honest with him. Asking is the hardest part; so glad I did.