an ending

[forgetmenot]

Just want an ending

[David Baxter]

That’s just what your brain is telling you now. But you know it can’t be that way.

[forgetmenot]

I know sorry but it keeps pushing me it keeps telling me the only way but um ya have to not go there

[forgetmenot]

it has been a very very long day stayed inside all day could not bring myself outside even for wood for fire or fresh air hsb should be home soon then we have to go to out not much energy but have to tired it get so hard fighting with the thoughts i feel depleted almost not here.

[David Baxter]

It is exhausting at times, isn’t it? Maybe it will help to get outside for a bit.

[GaryQ]

Don't forget this time of year is a hard one... lack if warmth and daylight hours. Hang in there FMN spring is coming just a couple more months.

[forgetmenot]

Ya cold here all time got home 58 degrees in house putting fire on won't go upstairs as it will be even colder up there so will stay down here by fire.
Went to my grandson 4th birthday celebrations could not back out of that one but glad i went got to hold them all and hug them all.
Do not know why i am so sad now but eh time to try to shut down.

Hope tomorrow i can get me out a bit and not stay inside as it is suppose to be warmer tomorrow we will see.

[gooblax]

Glad to hear that you had a nice time at your grandson's birthday party fmn.
Have you tried other strategies rather than shutting down the sadness, like maybe journalling for a bit about what's on your mind, or doing some sort of mindfulness activity where you focus on how the emotion feels in your body?

I hope you get to go out tomorrow, and feel better soon.

[forgetmenot]

Thanks gooblax i will sometimes sit down and j ust write the words that come to mind let the words come out. I do not want to feel or deal with emotions just too hard it gets to painful and overwhelming so that is why i shut it all down. I have not seen therapist now will be 4 weeks but booked to see him this Thursday so hopefully will be able to get this mind to stop going to a way out i know the way out i do but i also know i cannot go there.

[GaryQ]

Bottling it up is really not healthy. It's like keep blowing up a tire or balloon sooner or later the built up pressure has no where to go and it explodes. Find some way to let it out even if it's scaring the wildlife in the area by just going outside and screaming from the top of your lungs. You need to work hard my friend on letting it all out. Hugs