tonight i have a very bad feeling creeping up on me. there is never any explaination for it, and even though i know it is just a state of mind due to abnormalities in chemical balance; i cannot convince myself i will be okay.
i feel so wierd, scared, like somethin gbad is going to happen, all the general symtoms of anxiety disease. i never know what to do when this happens, i have not been on medication in years. i know nothing is wrong, and nothing bad is going to happen, but i cant shake the terror. i feel uneasy, and very worried, and i just would od anything to free myself from the way i feel tonight. im not even in a bad mood, i am just...frightened.
the whole "porn" issue does this to me too. it is almost as though i am angry to prevent it from making me feel panicked. i dont know exactly why it does this to me, and i know it shouldnt, but it does. and there is nothing i have discovered, no knowledge that has made it fade. what should i do, to prevent this from making me feel so terrified?
that isnt specifically why i feel this way right now, i dont know why i feel like this. but it makes me really, REALLY nervous. i feel awful and shaky inside. i just try to not allow it out...so i dont have an attack and suffer the worst. but i hate feeling it creeping up from inside.
also, if for any reason people would prefer i add to old topics instead of creating new ones, let me know.