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    Depression and Stress Problems

    Hello,
    I have been looking around this forum for a couple of hours now (not all in one day) and Iím not sure what to post this under so I thought it best fitted here.

    Iíve been having a lot of problems lately with the way my life and how my moods have been going. Iíve been depressed for a while now and Itís not like me to be depressed like this for so long. When I did get depressed it lasted for the max 3 or 4 days and that only happened a couple of times. Usually I wasnít depressed anymore by the time the next day came. But for the past 2 to 3 months I have been almost full time depressed and itís scaring me.

    Iím a senior in High School. Last year I failed a few classes due to my time away from school and Iím making them up because I need to graduate. So this year Iím really trying to concentrate but it seems I just canít and all I do is break down and just start crying.

    My mother has been so angry with me because I donít do anything. I donít want to talk to my mom. Sheíll blow up at me if I say anything is wrong with me. I feel bad about this because I used to tell my mother everything but now I feel I canít talk to her anymore. I canít talk to my sister because sheíll tell my mother and the same for my brother. (Iím the youngest in my family) My mother is going through metapause and I donít know if itís that or if itís just me but sheís always super angry or super nice. Sheís usually only nice when we have people over or my brother comes for a visit. Any other times I feel sheís always yelling about something I didnít do or something I need to do or something I did that was done wrong. I really donít want to be mad at her because I know sheís going through a lot right now.

    When I started to notice a problem was arising, (actually my friend noticed and pointed it out to me) I started to look for some help. And I thought I might be suffering from a fear of mine almost like a phobia. Itís embarrassing to talk about but I really thought it was a problemÖ and I still do. So, I started to look for some Self-help books for that and I felt completely hopeless as the only things I could find were online and I can't order stuff for myself yet. I didnít want to ask my mother but I asked my brother but heís busy with his school work and stuff so heís probably forgotten by now.
    So I looked again and I found this forum. Iíve looked around here and started to read. I think Iím more depressed and stressed out then suffering from my fear even though is still bothers me quite a bit.

    I talked to a close online friend of mine about some of the problems and stressors and my whole phobia problem I have been going through and talking to her always makes me feel better. That is until recently. Now when I talk to her I feel like Iím dumping all my problems on her and I hate it. I donít want her to worry but I want some kind of help. I donít have a job so I canít pay for anything even if I could get help. I donít want to bother my mother, as I said before sheíll just yell at me or freak out. Iíve tried talking to some of my other friends but no one seems to really understand or they think Iím joking except my one online friend I mentioned.
    I cry almost every night it seems and I almost burst into tears at school randomly. Iíve never felt so sad before. First time in my life I have ever wanted to just disappear and it scares me. I donít believe in suicide. Iíve had many friends over the years whoíve trying to do that and I could never help them. Thankfully none of them ever went through with any of it and are now living good lives. I never want to hurt myself like that. I DO want to see what tomorrow brings. I know thereís help somewhere and even if it takes a few years Iíll get help somehow or another. I just wish I could do something now about all this. I donít want to fail my classes. I never seem to get enough sleep. I have a driving test to take soon. And I just donít know anymore.

    Sorry this post is so long.

  2. #2

    Depression and Stress Problems

    Please don't apologize for the post size! I'm glad that you're here and that you are taking the initiative to figure out what's wrong. I'm also glad that you're able to look at this objectively enough that you don't want to commit suicide. That says A LOT!

    Would you be able to talk to a professional about this? I realize that it must be hard considering your mother's reactions. However, you simply can't let this go on too long. You need help. Have you thought about talking to your school counselor? Sometimes they can be very helpful, especially if you're not getting the help elsewhere.

    My mother is going through metapause and I donít know if itís that or if itís just me but sheís always super angry or super nice. Sheís usually only nice when we have people over or my brother comes for a visit. Any other times I feel sheís always yelling about something I didnít do or something I need to do or something I did that was done wrong.
    I can really relate to that. My mother is exactly the same way. Everyone outside of the family loves her because she's extremely different around them than she is with me. It's hard not to take it personally but you have to keep in mind that it's HER issue and not YOURS. I know that doesn't make the situation any easier to deal with but you can't internalize it.

    I'm not sure that you mentioned in your post what your phobia is. Would you mind sharing?

  3. #3

    Depression and Stress Problems

    If you are able to describe the "phobia" here, you might be surprised to learn that many others have exeprienced a similar problem and can help you by sharing their own experiences. On the other hand, it seems you are embarrassed about whatever it is -- if you would feel more comfortable, send me a Private Message (see "Messages" at the top of the page or "send message" under my name at the left) or via email.

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    Depression and Stress Problems

    Quote Originally Posted by Ash
    Would you be able to talk to a professional about this? I realize that it must be hard considering your mother's reactions. However, you simply can't let this go on too long. You need help. Have you thought about talking to your school counselor? Sometimes they can be very helpful, especially if you're not getting the help elsewhere.
    I'm actually too scared to. I wish I could get help by myself but I don't have the money or the transpertation. I have thought about talking to my school counselor but truthfully I don't like him and I don't know the school psychologist and I'm scared to ask who it is.

  5. #5

    Depression and Stress Problems

    Quote Originally Posted by MMJ
    I'm actually too scared to. I wish I could get help by myself but I don't have the money or the transpertation. I have thought about talking to my school counselor but truthfully I don't like him and I don't know the school psychologist and I'm scared to ask who it is.
    If you don't like the counselor then definitely don't go talk to him. That would only be added stress. Do you trust any of your teachers? Even if it's only to ask who the psychologist is? I'm worried about you.

  6. #6

    Depression and Stress Problems

    Quote Originally Posted by Ash
    If you don't like the counselor then definitely don't go talk to him. That would only be added stress. Do you trust any of your teachers? Even if it's only to ask who the psychologist is? I'm worried about you.
    I actually have been thinking about this all day and I belive my other art teacher would help me. I never really thought about it but she's always been nice and suportive. I think I might ask her. Thank you very much.

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    Depression and Stress Problems

    Quote Originally Posted by MMJ
    I actually have been thinking about this all day and I belive my other art teacher would help me. I never really thought about it but she's always been nice and suportive. I think I might ask her. Thank you very much.
    I hope that you do. Please keep us updated!

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    Depression and Stress Problems

    Hi MMJ,
    Yes, keep us updated :)
    Keep talking here if you can, as people here do want to listen...

    I remember my mom going through menopause... it was hurtful to me, as she had always been so caring, so sacrificial...

    I was sharing a flat (apartment) with some people when I was 19 and there was weird stuff going on there... tarot/occult and loads of pot...and the people got nasty, so I phoned my dad, in tears when it was really bad, and he came and took me home...
    my mom just moaned that I was home (and I was already very upset), ...but that just wasn't like her...and she dropped comments about me getting dad to do what I wanted etc...

    I know now what was going on in her menopausal mind, but I didn't then and felt she didn't love me...
    She came through it though... :D and got back to normal.

    Try and think of it as being a phase with your mom, and because it's physical she doesn't have much control over it...

    But I'm sure she still loves you. :)

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    Depression and Stress Problems

    Thank you, Sammy. I do try and remember that. Sometimes it's hard... and it just started about a few months ago so It's really frightening to me I suppose.

    The teacher I spoke of wasn't there today. I'm going to have to wait till next week. I thought of perhaps leaving a note in the psychiatristís "box" but I'm not even fur if she has a box. I found her name on my School's Website but no picture or anything. I'm still going to ask my art teacher.

    I will keep posting. Thank you so much! I actually feel better just talking about it.

  10. #10

    Depression and Stress Problems

    I thought of perhaps leaving a note in the psychiatristís "box" but I'm not even fur if she has a box. I found her name on my School's Website but no picture or anything. I'm still going to ask my art teacher.
    that sounds good- well done!
    (((hugs)))
    Marion

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