HotthenCold
Member
Hi there,
I'm thinking myself in circles (or toroidal vortices) so I don't know if this feeling is depression or just a hideous amount of self indulgence and laziness...
I often get stuck in ruts where I don't feel like doing anything. A more accurate way to describe the feeling is a mixture of dread and indifference. I do enough to keep my life together. I pay my rent, have a job, groceries, etc, but anything beyond that is very difficult. I find it very hard to concentrate and increasingly can't be bothered. For example I could read the most interesting headline about a subject that interests me, but once I start reading the actual article I get extremely bored and impatient and move on to something else. I type like a madman because I really just want to be finished. I barely think sentences and paragraphs through because I always feel impatient and bored and want to do something else....then I get to something else and don't want to do it either. I'm lucky enough to have a job that gives me lots of free time, but I'm alone and so I end up spending a lot of time doing nothing. I feel like I'm wasting my life but when it comes down to it I'm a mixture of hyperactive and melancholic...
Does this sound like depression or just bad habits?
I'm thinking myself in circles (or toroidal vortices) so I don't know if this feeling is depression or just a hideous amount of self indulgence and laziness...
I often get stuck in ruts where I don't feel like doing anything. A more accurate way to describe the feeling is a mixture of dread and indifference. I do enough to keep my life together. I pay my rent, have a job, groceries, etc, but anything beyond that is very difficult. I find it very hard to concentrate and increasingly can't be bothered. For example I could read the most interesting headline about a subject that interests me, but once I start reading the actual article I get extremely bored and impatient and move on to something else. I type like a madman because I really just want to be finished. I barely think sentences and paragraphs through because I always feel impatient and bored and want to do something else....then I get to something else and don't want to do it either. I'm lucky enough to have a job that gives me lots of free time, but I'm alone and so I end up spending a lot of time doing nothing. I feel like I'm wasting my life but when it comes down to it I'm a mixture of hyperactive and melancholic...
Does this sound like depression or just bad habits?