I often think of getting some help in treatment programs, but I don't think I can, here's why: 4 years ago, I dropped my weight so low I almost didn't make it. They found me wandering the streets and i don't remember it until I was locked up on a suicidal ward because they thought I would run away. It was the WORST experience of my life. They took away EVERYTHING, tv, cigarettes, coffee, gum, clothes, I had NOTHING and I was told I would be there until I doubled my weight. I was there for 3 full months on bedrest forced to eat 3,500 calories a day. I gained almost a pound a day and by the time I got out, i felt like the hugest fattest ugliest blob alive. They offered NO support and the only goal was to fatten me up. I became VERY depressed and they said i was only depressed beacuse i was gaining weight and I was not perscribed any medication whatsoever. I couldn't sleep because the lights were on 24/7. I am too scared to even see a phyciatrist anymore I just wish there was someone to really help me. too bad.