How do you come to terms with things around you when you don't have what everyone else has? I can't do it! I've had severe mood disorder for 25 years (I'm 40), I've always been lagging behind everyone and my life has been a disaster, I can't work anymore. I've never had any deep relationships because of my depression/agitation/anxiety/racing thoughts, etc. I have responded very poorly to all medications and I am left here to waste away.
It tears me apart to see everyone else living their lives and I can't take part. I will not settle for anything less than living out my life. I can not come to terms with sex. Many people have awesome sex whenever they want and I am left here night after night dreaming about it.
I may sound like an adolescent but all of this is my very existence. It is breaking me apart.
Therapists really don't want to get into these things. They just say you have to live within your limitations when confronted with a disorder, etc. I refuse to do that. You can only get a fraction out of life when you're a fraction of a person.
It tears me apart to see everyone else living their lives and I can't take part. I will not settle for anything less than living out my life. I can not come to terms with sex. Many people have awesome sex whenever they want and I am left here night after night dreaming about it.
I may sound like an adolescent but all of this is my very existence. It is breaking me apart.
Therapists really don't want to get into these things. They just say you have to live within your limitations when confronted with a disorder, etc. I refuse to do that. You can only get a fraction out of life when you're a fraction of a person.