I've never said anything about this because I thought that I could manage it and eventually get over it. There are times in both individual therapy and marriage counseling that I simply freeze and go inside of myself because the subject matter is too hard to deal with. Some stuff happened to me when I was a kid that still has a hold on me. It makes it difficult for me be close with my husband and other people. Coupled with this, about 4-5 years ago, my husband forced himself on me and when we're together, I have to pretend like I'm someone else and go away. Afterwards, I'm like this stupid, jerk kid who feels ashamed that I can't get my act together. I have the knowledge of what I'm suppose to do to overcome this. Yet, it's more than a notion. Has anyone out there learned to get past dissociation when old wounds crop up?