- Jun 22, 2005
hey i needed to talk cause i don't know what to do i am pathetic one of my friends just got hospitalised for anorexia and she is dying she is not doing good basicly and it scares me to death not because i am doing the same or anything not because i am in the same position but because i envy her i wish i wer in that position and everything would just end i wish she wasn't that thin ad it was me i wish i were the one that would lose it all and no longuer suffereing so basicly i am sad because she might get to dye before me . i admit that i am sad because my friend is very ill and that she is at the end of her fight she still has a chance but very tiny but i can't help but feel ****ed that she reached it before me she is almost dead before me . is this normal !????