Im a student and my mum is in quite bad debt, ive been helping her out partially for a while now, expect we don't get on at all, and to be honest she is contributing to my self worth. Ive been thinking of moving out for a while now and have mentioned it to her; and her reponse being she doesnt want to know because she disagrees with it because i can't handle life yet. Ive told her again this year and shes sort of accepted it. This morning shes just told me i need to "keep us afloat" for another two years. To be honest i wouldnt mind if i was stronger and wasnt getting worse at the momment. Ive been getting suicidal and been self harming more in the past week, before i was told this. I dont know if i should be feeling trapped or not, or whether it is right for me to be upset or not. I have no idea.i don't know what i should be feeling, thinking or doing at this momment. I don't know what to tell her or to tell myself. Im just loosing my focus here.