- Aug 13, 2006
I have a question that I am trying to work through. I feel sometimes like I was somehow "programmed" as a child to self-destruct if I ever told anyone the truth about what was happening to me. Now this seems to manifest itself when I am sharing particularly difficult things that happened with my therapist. Since my memories are somewhat sketchy at best but I have been told about the nature of some of the torture we went through as kids by other people, I am not sure whether this is my own idea about being programmed or whether it really was true. In any case I feel like I need to be de-programmed. Does anyone else ever feel this way?