Hello....and help.
I'm 17, female, I don't believe in God, but am very much a "christian type" girl when it comes to morals and values. I'm an honor student, popular, and have good friends. I don't get into any trouble and live with my dad who is a very loving one. With that said, I have a mental problem that I need help on. Its involved, but I need a best guess about what is wrong with me.
First, I've had these problems all of my life and its hard to explain but it goes like this. Whenever I see bad events on TV for example, I can become part of that event. This last one was the worst and involved a little 9 year old girl. A month or so ago, a 9 year old girl on TV, Jessica Lunsford was kidnapped, raped and murdered. When I heard about it, I began to think about it a lot. She was on my mind daily. As I continued thinking about her, I started to go downhill to the point that I become her. It can become so intense that I am with her, I can feel her crying, screaming and fighting for her life. I "know" what she went thru, I know how she felt, not physically, but mentally. I usually end up sick to my stomach for days on end. Sometimes sick enough to throw up. She was one of many that have affected me like this and she will haunt me for a month before she fades from my mind like the other bad events.
Now for my other problem. I'm a good singer, and on Sundays, I sing in church at the right side of the altar. Lots of senior citizens come there to hear me sing and when I look at them, I see a lot of sadness in there eyes. That sadness, and the emotional music like "Oh holy night" makes me tear up to the point that it runs down the side of my face. I have always been prone to tearing up when I sing emotional songs, so I don't read too much into that. Some of them will see me after mass, and when I look at them, I can feel something like they want me to tell them something. Not all of them. Just some.
Sometimes in the mall with my friends, I will look at a little kid thats crying and if he looks at me looking at him, I get like an emotional wave that comes over me and I can almost know why he is sad. I sometimes get the feeling that they are trying to say something to me. The eye contact remains long.
I'm not pulling anything here. I just can't take this anymore. I'm seeing a female physciatrist who has me on Prozac, but doesn't know what is wrong with me. She thinks its some form of PTSD, but she's not sure. She says that I see an event, my mind makes up a story to fit that event, and then I play it out. Geez.....how does that work. The medication makes be feel different, but it doesn't stop what I see and feel.
Now....I am not suicidal or think of hurting myself, and am happy 95% of the time when I'm at the mall, jogging, riding my bike, with dad, etc, but some events will suddenly grab me and drag me way down. I can and I do "feel" people and it really scares me.
Please don't mention or use the word psychic or telepath.....I can't send any messages or bend any spoons, and none of those quacks can. I don't believe that junk at all. The people who make those claims are bogus and are just con artists and thats why I haven't gone to any of those sites.
What is wrong with my brain.
Thank You
Bettina
I'm 17, female, I don't believe in God, but am very much a "christian type" girl when it comes to morals and values. I'm an honor student, popular, and have good friends. I don't get into any trouble and live with my dad who is a very loving one. With that said, I have a mental problem that I need help on. Its involved, but I need a best guess about what is wrong with me.
First, I've had these problems all of my life and its hard to explain but it goes like this. Whenever I see bad events on TV for example, I can become part of that event. This last one was the worst and involved a little 9 year old girl. A month or so ago, a 9 year old girl on TV, Jessica Lunsford was kidnapped, raped and murdered. When I heard about it, I began to think about it a lot. She was on my mind daily. As I continued thinking about her, I started to go downhill to the point that I become her. It can become so intense that I am with her, I can feel her crying, screaming and fighting for her life. I "know" what she went thru, I know how she felt, not physically, but mentally. I usually end up sick to my stomach for days on end. Sometimes sick enough to throw up. She was one of many that have affected me like this and she will haunt me for a month before she fades from my mind like the other bad events.
Now for my other problem. I'm a good singer, and on Sundays, I sing in church at the right side of the altar. Lots of senior citizens come there to hear me sing and when I look at them, I see a lot of sadness in there eyes. That sadness, and the emotional music like "Oh holy night" makes me tear up to the point that it runs down the side of my face. I have always been prone to tearing up when I sing emotional songs, so I don't read too much into that. Some of them will see me after mass, and when I look at them, I can feel something like they want me to tell them something. Not all of them. Just some.
Sometimes in the mall with my friends, I will look at a little kid thats crying and if he looks at me looking at him, I get like an emotional wave that comes over me and I can almost know why he is sad. I sometimes get the feeling that they are trying to say something to me. The eye contact remains long.
I'm not pulling anything here. I just can't take this anymore. I'm seeing a female physciatrist who has me on Prozac, but doesn't know what is wrong with me. She thinks its some form of PTSD, but she's not sure. She says that I see an event, my mind makes up a story to fit that event, and then I play it out. Geez.....how does that work. The medication makes be feel different, but it doesn't stop what I see and feel.
Now....I am not suicidal or think of hurting myself, and am happy 95% of the time when I'm at the mall, jogging, riding my bike, with dad, etc, but some events will suddenly grab me and drag me way down. I can and I do "feel" people and it really scares me.
Please don't mention or use the word psychic or telepath.....I can't send any messages or bend any spoons, and none of those quacks can. I don't believe that junk at all. The people who make those claims are bogus and are just con artists and thats why I haven't gone to any of those sites.
What is wrong with my brain.
Thank You
Bettina