I`m hoping that someone may be able to help or advise me on what to do.
I recently started dating a 33 year old woman, I'm also 33, things have moved at a very fast pace between us and we seem to really hit it off.
This woman i have found to be really interesting and she stimulates me in mind, body and spirit.
Okay this is the problem that i have,this woman has a history of Bipolar, self harming and bulimia. She has overcome the latter two but still has mild bipolar. When she was at her lowest point four years ago she was found by another woman who helped her. This woman was following a shamanic path called the Peruvian Medicine Wheel, so the woman whom I'm dating joined the group.
My girlfriend has taken to this medicine wheel completely. It is now a massive part of her life and the woman who took her in is in my girlfriends own words "everything" to her.My girlfriend has been single for the entire time that she has been in this group, the leader woman has in the last year found a man to share her life with who has also joined the group. My girlfriend wanted to find a man to join her on her journey.
So after dating her for a while and doing all the normal dating things like eating out, going to the movies, bowling, etc., etc., she then introduced me to the group. I participated in what was called a fire ceremony where i had to shake a rattle and chant. After the ceremony the leader woman said that she had seen a serpent that had looked at me and said "who is he?". This made me feel as if i was being questioned as to my intent,i went along with an open mind to experience something that i had never experienced before and was made to feel very much like an outsider. I felt that this leader woman saw me as a threat.
The house of the leader was very unhygienic with mice running around the kitchen work surfaces. I wasn't comfortable in this environment, so things weren't looking good. I didn't want to tell my girlfriend that i didn't really like this leader woman and that i never wanted to be in her house again as i didn't want to upset my girlfriend, but of course i had to tell her.
My girlfriend said she couldn't see how we could continue as the group are a massive part of her life, that she had told the leader what i had said to her, that the leader was very angry and didn't want anything to do with me... Things were looking really bleak. We broke up at that time.
A few days later we saw each other again, we had a wonderful time together, then she called me a couple of days later to break up with me, saying that she noticed that i had tendencies for being jealous, possessive and short tempered. i agreed with her that i do have some of these tendencies, but in a volume that is probably quite normal in certain situations... Well maybe I'm a bit worse than the average. Anyway, she was calling it off again. I got angry and decided the only way to really end it was for me to be horrible, so i told her where to go, what i thought of the situation she was in and what she should do. I was rude and hurtful to her, something which i regretted doing almost as soon as i did it.
A week passes and we get in contact again. Everything is great. We both think about each other all the time. We do the same things and think along the same lines. So we spend another weekend together. I take her out and treat her with kindness which makes me happy to see her happy. We talked a lot and decided to just go with the flow and that everything would work itself out in time.
Today she contacts me saying that the leader is really off with her and that she feels torn. She keeps crying all the time because she doesn't know what to do. She knows I'll never be accepted in the group because of how i feel and what i have said. She wanted someone to walk the same path as her but realises that it wont happen. I keep trying to tell her that it`s okay to have different interests, that i don't want her to give anything up, that it'll be okay, that I'm still here for her and that we can be good together.
I'm clueless as what to do, because she has a history of BPD. i don't want to be the cause of her misery, she has been in the comfort of this group for four years now and has kept her BPD in check... What can i do?
Please help me if you can. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Jeff.
I recently started dating a 33 year old woman, I'm also 33, things have moved at a very fast pace between us and we seem to really hit it off.
This woman i have found to be really interesting and she stimulates me in mind, body and spirit.
Okay this is the problem that i have,this woman has a history of Bipolar, self harming and bulimia. She has overcome the latter two but still has mild bipolar. When she was at her lowest point four years ago she was found by another woman who helped her. This woman was following a shamanic path called the Peruvian Medicine Wheel, so the woman whom I'm dating joined the group.
My girlfriend has taken to this medicine wheel completely. It is now a massive part of her life and the woman who took her in is in my girlfriends own words "everything" to her.My girlfriend has been single for the entire time that she has been in this group, the leader woman has in the last year found a man to share her life with who has also joined the group. My girlfriend wanted to find a man to join her on her journey.
So after dating her for a while and doing all the normal dating things like eating out, going to the movies, bowling, etc., etc., she then introduced me to the group. I participated in what was called a fire ceremony where i had to shake a rattle and chant. After the ceremony the leader woman said that she had seen a serpent that had looked at me and said "who is he?". This made me feel as if i was being questioned as to my intent,i went along with an open mind to experience something that i had never experienced before and was made to feel very much like an outsider. I felt that this leader woman saw me as a threat.
The house of the leader was very unhygienic with mice running around the kitchen work surfaces. I wasn't comfortable in this environment, so things weren't looking good. I didn't want to tell my girlfriend that i didn't really like this leader woman and that i never wanted to be in her house again as i didn't want to upset my girlfriend, but of course i had to tell her.
My girlfriend said she couldn't see how we could continue as the group are a massive part of her life, that she had told the leader what i had said to her, that the leader was very angry and didn't want anything to do with me... Things were looking really bleak. We broke up at that time.
A few days later we saw each other again, we had a wonderful time together, then she called me a couple of days later to break up with me, saying that she noticed that i had tendencies for being jealous, possessive and short tempered. i agreed with her that i do have some of these tendencies, but in a volume that is probably quite normal in certain situations... Well maybe I'm a bit worse than the average. Anyway, she was calling it off again. I got angry and decided the only way to really end it was for me to be horrible, so i told her where to go, what i thought of the situation she was in and what she should do. I was rude and hurtful to her, something which i regretted doing almost as soon as i did it.
A week passes and we get in contact again. Everything is great. We both think about each other all the time. We do the same things and think along the same lines. So we spend another weekend together. I take her out and treat her with kindness which makes me happy to see her happy. We talked a lot and decided to just go with the flow and that everything would work itself out in time.
Today she contacts me saying that the leader is really off with her and that she feels torn. She keeps crying all the time because she doesn't know what to do. She knows I'll never be accepted in the group because of how i feel and what i have said. She wanted someone to walk the same path as her but realises that it wont happen. I keep trying to tell her that it`s okay to have different interests, that i don't want her to give anything up, that it'll be okay, that I'm still here for her and that we can be good together.
I'm clueless as what to do, because she has a history of BPD. i don't want to be the cause of her misery, she has been in the comfort of this group for four years now and has kept her BPD in check... What can i do?
Please help me if you can. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Jeff.