Cat Dancer
MVP
I am too needy and I want too much. I need to keep things inside and just go on with my life. I think that would be way less painful than depending on someone to help me.
It's painful because I'm too slow and resistant to it and I want to give up. I don't think I've changed at all since I've started and I've just wasted his time. And my time and I really don't know anymore what my goals are.
I'm scared, very scared, I've come to the end of what I'm able to do/heal. It feels like there are things so deeply imbedded in me that I can never, ever stop doing them. And what is the point of continuing to waste everyone's time when I have this attitude? But what if it's true?