EllieBethNielsen
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Last year around December I left my fiancee who I was living with and had been with for 4 years, since I was 18. I felt at the time that it would never work and I was afraid. We fought a lot and I didn't trust him since he sort of cheated on me. I tried to forgive and forget but I guess my insecurities took control and it consumed me. Nevertheless I left because I knew it would end in a horrible divorce.
However, it turned my whole world upside down. The heartbreak is something that is so intense and overwhelming that I can't breathe. Even today, 365 days later..
I've been with other men and currently dating a lovely man. But he is always on the back of my mind. Not a moment goes by that I'm not thinking of him or dreaming of him. I hate him so much yet just want him to love me. I break down crying all the time because of it. I lost everything when I left him and I have nothing left. I know it seems dramatic as its a relationship, but I gave him my whole life (he was controlling), and it's hard to gain it back.
My concern is that it's been a year. I drink everyday in order to forget and I hurt the ones I love. I'm also scared since my new relationships with men are damaged because of it. I dont want to lose my current boyfriend but I keep pushing him away.
Two weeks after I left my fiancee I asked to work on things, yet he had met someone else and picked her over me. TWO WEEKS. After I gave him 4 years... anyway... Has anyone had to deal with this type of pain and how do I get over it. What can I do to help. I need this pain to stop it's simply killing me and I'm afraid one day soon it actually will.
However, it turned my whole world upside down. The heartbreak is something that is so intense and overwhelming that I can't breathe. Even today, 365 days later..
I've been with other men and currently dating a lovely man. But he is always on the back of my mind. Not a moment goes by that I'm not thinking of him or dreaming of him. I hate him so much yet just want him to love me. I break down crying all the time because of it. I lost everything when I left him and I have nothing left. I know it seems dramatic as its a relationship, but I gave him my whole life (he was controlling), and it's hard to gain it back.
My concern is that it's been a year. I drink everyday in order to forget and I hurt the ones I love. I'm also scared since my new relationships with men are damaged because of it. I dont want to lose my current boyfriend but I keep pushing him away.
Two weeks after I left my fiancee I asked to work on things, yet he had met someone else and picked her over me. TWO WEEKS. After I gave him 4 years... anyway... Has anyone had to deal with this type of pain and how do I get over it. What can I do to help. I need this pain to stop it's simply killing me and I'm afraid one day soon it actually will.