Every day I struggle with loss of motivation. I stay in bed all morning and no matter how much sleep I have I am still lethargic and apathetic. It's definitely not how I want to be. The reason I am writing about it in this forum is because I feel very alone. For example, when I went to a supermarket yesterday I was looking around at the people there and thinking they all look awake and alive, why don't I feel the same? I wonder if there are other people out there who struggle with loss of motivation. I know life is precious and relatively short. I know I don't want to waste it sleeping and doing nothing. But that thought doesn't motivate me. To complicate things further, I have been diagnosed with depression and sleep apnoea as well as schizophrenia, so it's hard to tell which illness contributes most to me feeling so bad, maybe it's all three combined. I am depressed but not hopeless. I always keep in mind the hope that one day I will be able to get out of bed at 8 am having had about 8 hours sleep and feel refreshed. Sorry if this writing is a little disjointed but I have a bit of trouble mustering my thoughts coherently. Also when I get a bus into town I normally nod off and I think why do all these other peolple have the stamina to stay awake, but not me? About 10 years ago I used to get up at the crack of dawn and go swimming. It felt great. I'm not whinging about how my life is now. I still feel blessed. Things could be worse. But I do feel alone and in need of understanding and reasssurance that I'm not simply lazy.