Offered to buy the guy a replacement but he declined and just had the drink I'd ordered, then I offered again when he was nearly finished it but he'd had enough.
So of course now I'm more upset with myself and slightly self harmed in a way I haven't used in ages and feel like I shouldn't exist so that was just a fantastic decision to accept that invitation.
"To Err is Human" looks at the consequences of medical errorstime.com
In the film, Dr. Ashish Jha, a professor of medicine and healthcare at Harvard Medical School, admits to prescribing medication to the wrong patient after confusing him with another with a similar name. “I felt terrible, I felt incompetent, I felt a little ashamed,” he says. “My first instinct was not just to fix the problem, but not to tell anybody.”O
I don't think there's any need to tell him.I did briefly tell him ages ago about the photo thing but he might not think it's still happening and I don't plan on saying it again any time soon.
It feels "weird" because it's a new and unfamiliar feeling for you. That doesn't make it messy though, nor does it mean it's a bad thing.I tried mentioning how much I would miss him if I stopped having sessions but couldn't even get the words out without choking up so I abandoned that line of conversation.
It's just messy and weird because I don't normally have such obvious strong feelings about people except in weird sorts of circumstances, and I don't like it.
He's behind on billing again but I'll cut him some slack there with his injury and the long lockdown stuffing up the new combined practice he'd just entered. But because my old card expired he'll need the new details - if he'd billed promptly then it would've been fine on the old card and I could've just told him during next session. I decided it was important enough for me to email him to let him know, just in case he's tried billing the old card or was planning on trying in the next few days before the session. Of course now I want to throw my phone (where I check emails, rather than on my desktop) off the 3rd floor balcony so I won't have to deal with it anymore.