I have for many years woken in the night to shapes and lights which half wakes me and i feel abit disorientated, then i just fall back to sleep. Sometimes i am disillusioned with the world like i am not sure where i am. I think people are talking about me, or laughing at me behind my back. I feel very anxious all the time, on edge, sometimes i lose it and am shocked sometimes at how i have behaved afterwards, over nothing, there has been several bereavements in my family over the last couple years. I have always been very anxious, and stressy over little things before.