this aint a blog , just a nightmare that damaged me,ok hear we go
i have been ill on an off all my life , hey you get on with it, when young you live off your nerves, an old they live of you. now i have lived 10 lives good an bad but was treated by g.p i.e benzo,s a,d,s , till worsening symtoms led to shrinks , this is where it goes down hill fast,
go to mental hospital out pationts see any number of shrinks never the same, canceled apiontments bad meds the hole bag. in between time an that could be 10 weeks with no meds only my friend lorazepam, you no whats comming, im scripted from g.p an hospital. i have loads , condition getting bad no shrink for 10 weeks. soon loz up to 10mg aday not working i no i will have a nip of brandy , soon a bottle.conpletly off the wall , wife takes me to mental unit , do something he is killing himself . is a young shrink ,you wont believe this he said stop the loz an the brandy dead cold turkey. an take 150 mg of velafaxcine.and sent me home.first night without loz ,rushed to a.an e stopped breathing son gave kiss off life , sent home next day after a.e gave me 2 loz.
2nd night head went on a trip to the planets an i overdosed to get out of the liveing death.in mental hospital i said im addicted to loz , they said your not , i said who is this climbing the walls ,they say you only had 3 a day i said no 10 no one would take the blame for over prescribing, put ven up to 250 m.g an gave me 6mg a day of valium , not even 1 loz in strenth.
spent days on stone walkin shower in a ball naked letting cold water run on me to match the sweat i was looseing, crept along the floor of the hospital. the staff still no believing me about my intake of loz,the night staff watched me sweat , i asked could i have a fan , they said we only have these 2 on are desk. i said if i could stand i would deck you.
i bluff my way out after a week 3 times worse than when i went in i drank vodka to stop shaking , went back to g.p he put me straight back on loz an after months of pain i am down to 4mg a day . to loose 6 was hard an im not strong inough to loose the other 4 yet .
now there is more but im wasted, sorry for spelling dyslexic
i have been ill on an off all my life , hey you get on with it, when young you live off your nerves, an old they live of you. now i have lived 10 lives good an bad but was treated by g.p i.e benzo,s a,d,s , till worsening symtoms led to shrinks , this is where it goes down hill fast,
go to mental hospital out pationts see any number of shrinks never the same, canceled apiontments bad meds the hole bag. in between time an that could be 10 weeks with no meds only my friend lorazepam, you no whats comming, im scripted from g.p an hospital. i have loads , condition getting bad no shrink for 10 weeks. soon loz up to 10mg aday not working i no i will have a nip of brandy , soon a bottle.conpletly off the wall , wife takes me to mental unit , do something he is killing himself . is a young shrink ,you wont believe this he said stop the loz an the brandy dead cold turkey. an take 150 mg of velafaxcine.and sent me home.first night without loz ,rushed to a.an e stopped breathing son gave kiss off life , sent home next day after a.e gave me 2 loz.
2nd night head went on a trip to the planets an i overdosed to get out of the liveing death.in mental hospital i said im addicted to loz , they said your not , i said who is this climbing the walls ,they say you only had 3 a day i said no 10 no one would take the blame for over prescribing, put ven up to 250 m.g an gave me 6mg a day of valium , not even 1 loz in strenth.
spent days on stone walkin shower in a ball naked letting cold water run on me to match the sweat i was looseing, crept along the floor of the hospital. the staff still no believing me about my intake of loz,the night staff watched me sweat , i asked could i have a fan , they said we only have these 2 on are desk. i said if i could stand i would deck you.
i bluff my way out after a week 3 times worse than when i went in i drank vodka to stop shaking , went back to g.p he put me straight back on loz an after months of pain i am down to 4mg a day . to loose 6 was hard an im not strong inough to loose the other 4 yet .
now there is more but im wasted, sorry for spelling dyslexic
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