LoneWolfie
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I have been with an act worker and psychiatrist since late February. When I was formed and hospitalized for almost 6 weeks, I was put on Cymbalta which only seemed to make my anger problem worse. I was on a whole whack of pills when I came out Nabilone, Clonazepam and Zopiclone, I was on these meds for while but felt they didn't help me at all. Most were taken at night. I was weaned off them all.
As I was being weaned off the Cymalta, my psychiatrist mentioned going onto another anti depressant and a mood stabilizer. Well I have been off the Cymbalta for just over 2 months and the only med I am on is Abilify 2mg for the last month I would say. My pdoc just upped it to 5mg a day because they didn't have anymore samples of the 2mg, to see if it would make a difference. A difference in what? My mood or anxiety.
From what I have read Abilify is also used for anxiety and/or used to suppliment an anti depressant. Well I am not on anything else. My worker mentioned a while back that I may not have a chemical imbalance, well I was on Zoloft for 15 years and over time it was increased but for 14 years I was doing pretty well.
Now I am feeling like I am hitting rock bottom in the depression department, last week I called a crisis line and was told to go to the hospital. I won't go because they say they can't help as I have borderline personality disorder. So were am I supposed to turn? The Pdoc that discharged me the last stink in the er for 6 days waiting to get on the psych ward told me borderlines have chronic depression, what kind of answer is that?
I am not a drinker and now I am self medicating with vodka, maybe a drink a day as my mood isn't as desperate as the night I called the crisis line. I'm just tired of all of this.
As I was being weaned off the Cymalta, my psychiatrist mentioned going onto another anti depressant and a mood stabilizer. Well I have been off the Cymbalta for just over 2 months and the only med I am on is Abilify 2mg for the last month I would say. My pdoc just upped it to 5mg a day because they didn't have anymore samples of the 2mg, to see if it would make a difference. A difference in what? My mood or anxiety.
From what I have read Abilify is also used for anxiety and/or used to suppliment an anti depressant. Well I am not on anything else. My worker mentioned a while back that I may not have a chemical imbalance, well I was on Zoloft for 15 years and over time it was increased but for 14 years I was doing pretty well.
Now I am feeling like I am hitting rock bottom in the depression department, last week I called a crisis line and was told to go to the hospital. I won't go because they say they can't help as I have borderline personality disorder. So were am I supposed to turn? The Pdoc that discharged me the last stink in the er for 6 days waiting to get on the psych ward told me borderlines have chronic depression, what kind of answer is that?
I am not a drinker and now I am self medicating with vodka, maybe a drink a day as my mood isn't as desperate as the night I called the crisis line. I'm just tired of all of this.
