I've a rather interesting twist on the prevailing theme here. I can relate to much of the symptoms, attempted suicide, self-mutilation and risk-taking, and I am very often depressed, but it's anger that causes the self-destructive activities. I feel completely contemptible and therefore contempt. At times like that, I just feel like throwing this wretched arsehole into napalm. After all, a dog that was causing a fraction of the woe that I do would be discreetly shot, would they not? Isn't the definition of altruism self-sacrifice for the greater good? I'm not sure if I buy that... Who can tell?