cekabf1225
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Hi, I was hoping to get some feedback on some things I've been experiencing.
About 3 1/2 years ago during my freshman year of college I very suddenly lost all motivation, I started falling behind, I began feeling regularly anxious, my grades dropped significantly and I barely passed the year. Over the summer I felt better and was able to relax. When the new school year came I fell into similar patterns but this time much deeper, the anxiety kept me from sleeping, I was making bad choices, my judgement and integrity became basically non existent. By the end of the school year I had stopped caring, alienated myself from the people who had my best interest at heart, I was manipulative and stopped caring about consequences and had no real feelings of remorse for any of the things I had done to stray me from a successful path.
I had dug myself a pretty serious hole. I left school, moved home with my parents, and tried to figure out where this drastic change in personality came from. When I came up with no answers, I started to feel numb, and have felt that way for about a year. There are days when I do feel better, and things that make me happy, so I'm confused as to whether or not I'm in a rough patch or something more serious is going on, but most of the time i feel like I don't know myself anymore. I feel detached from most emotional situations, most of the time I feel empty, when I do feel its usually sad, but that is not always the case. I dont know where these feelings came from, I dont know how to identify what's wrong if anything.
I could really use some opinions please help.
About 3 1/2 years ago during my freshman year of college I very suddenly lost all motivation, I started falling behind, I began feeling regularly anxious, my grades dropped significantly and I barely passed the year. Over the summer I felt better and was able to relax. When the new school year came I fell into similar patterns but this time much deeper, the anxiety kept me from sleeping, I was making bad choices, my judgement and integrity became basically non existent. By the end of the school year I had stopped caring, alienated myself from the people who had my best interest at heart, I was manipulative and stopped caring about consequences and had no real feelings of remorse for any of the things I had done to stray me from a successful path.
I had dug myself a pretty serious hole. I left school, moved home with my parents, and tried to figure out where this drastic change in personality came from. When I came up with no answers, I started to feel numb, and have felt that way for about a year. There are days when I do feel better, and things that make me happy, so I'm confused as to whether or not I'm in a rough patch or something more serious is going on, but most of the time i feel like I don't know myself anymore. I feel detached from most emotional situations, most of the time I feel empty, when I do feel its usually sad, but that is not always the case. I dont know where these feelings came from, I dont know how to identify what's wrong if anything.
I could really use some opinions please help.
