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Well, this is my first post here, I signed up for the forum a while ago but am just now posting about this problem. I'm 22 years old, maybe older than most people here, but still a young adult. Now onto the issue at hand...
I've struggled with depression all of my life and always thought it was normal. In my senior year of high school I met the greatest girl I ever knew, but she was my best friends little sister. During a camping trip right after high school graduation, my friend's sister and I hooked up. After the trip was over I spoke with my friend about it and he said that he would rather her be dating me than anybody else in the world. So, as a result, his sister and I started dating. We dated for the entire summer and spent everyday together and everything was great. Then, the end of August came and it was time for me to go away for college (about an hour from home). We stayed together, but I always blamed myself for leaving her behind. I came home for the weekends to spend time with her but I guess it wasn't enough. On November 29 of that year (2001), we talked on the phone after my last class and she broke up with me. I was devastated. I began to see a psychologist in January and saw him once a week until August 2002. He put me on depression medication but since I was too busy with school, I stopped seeing him. Then, the day after christmas (2002) Gwen (the girl) and her friend came by my parents place looking for me and I answered the door. Basically, we started dating again for 2 weeks and she broke up with me again right before I left to go back to school. I haven't really spoke to her since then. Well, now it is 2005, I just graduated college on May 7th and have my own place here in my home town. In April of this year I stopped taking my depression medication. Gwen has a boyfriend, I think they have been going out for over a year. I drive by her a lot and sometimes I drive by her when she is with her boyfriend. I act like I don't notice her but really I notice her very much. I still get that sick to the stomach feeling whenever I see her. It seems that since I'm home now, all of my feelings for her are resurfacing and I am sick of feeling this way. I can't take it anymore and don't know what to do, it's killing me inside.
I'm a good looking, intelligent, and well rounded person; so I can get other girls, but she seems to always be the only one on my mind.
What can I do?
-Van
I've struggled with depression all of my life and always thought it was normal. In my senior year of high school I met the greatest girl I ever knew, but she was my best friends little sister. During a camping trip right after high school graduation, my friend's sister and I hooked up. After the trip was over I spoke with my friend about it and he said that he would rather her be dating me than anybody else in the world. So, as a result, his sister and I started dating. We dated for the entire summer and spent everyday together and everything was great. Then, the end of August came and it was time for me to go away for college (about an hour from home). We stayed together, but I always blamed myself for leaving her behind. I came home for the weekends to spend time with her but I guess it wasn't enough. On November 29 of that year (2001), we talked on the phone after my last class and she broke up with me. I was devastated. I began to see a psychologist in January and saw him once a week until August 2002. He put me on depression medication but since I was too busy with school, I stopped seeing him. Then, the day after christmas (2002) Gwen (the girl) and her friend came by my parents place looking for me and I answered the door. Basically, we started dating again for 2 weeks and she broke up with me again right before I left to go back to school. I haven't really spoke to her since then. Well, now it is 2005, I just graduated college on May 7th and have my own place here in my home town. In April of this year I stopped taking my depression medication. Gwen has a boyfriend, I think they have been going out for over a year. I drive by her a lot and sometimes I drive by her when she is with her boyfriend. I act like I don't notice her but really I notice her very much. I still get that sick to the stomach feeling whenever I see her. It seems that since I'm home now, all of my feelings for her are resurfacing and I am sick of feeling this way. I can't take it anymore and don't know what to do, it's killing me inside.
I'm a good looking, intelligent, and well rounded person; so I can get other girls, but she seems to always be the only one on my mind.
What can I do?
-Van