[talon]
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IM 15 YEARS OLD
i was horribly depressed and socially anxious a few months ago. then i was referred to a psychiatrist and he diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder and i was prescribed celexa,an anti-depressant. i never told my doctor that i was suicidal because my mom was with me and i didn't want her to know,that and i also cut. things HAD been SLIGHTLY better since then.
however, i started high school. everything went back to the way it was b4. horrible. awful. my anxiety is still here, just somewhat less so. i only have 1 friend, my others have went to different schools and/or ditched me for new friends,i am incapable of making friends because of my friking anxiety that is mainly in social situations ( i feel like im having a heart attack whenever im near people i dont know.i used to have really insane anxiety attacks before i started celexa,but even now i can still feel something similiar to one). i go to the ****tiest school on the face of the earth and i cant leave, i want to die more than anything right now because everyone hates me and im going to die alone my mom hates me and my sister hates me and my dad just doesn't care. my beloved cat dissapeared mysteriously and I HAVE TO SEE A THERAPIST to learn how to handle social situations with group therapy which scares me because im worried it wont work cuz im so nervous
i only sleep 3 hours a night because i cant shut off my brain and im not allowed to take drugs.
what should i do?
i was horribly depressed and socially anxious a few months ago. then i was referred to a psychiatrist and he diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder and i was prescribed celexa,an anti-depressant. i never told my doctor that i was suicidal because my mom was with me and i didn't want her to know,that and i also cut. things HAD been SLIGHTLY better since then.
however, i started high school. everything went back to the way it was b4. horrible. awful. my anxiety is still here, just somewhat less so. i only have 1 friend, my others have went to different schools and/or ditched me for new friends,i am incapable of making friends because of my friking anxiety that is mainly in social situations ( i feel like im having a heart attack whenever im near people i dont know.i used to have really insane anxiety attacks before i started celexa,but even now i can still feel something similiar to one). i go to the ****tiest school on the face of the earth and i cant leave, i want to die more than anything right now because everyone hates me and im going to die alone my mom hates me and my sister hates me and my dad just doesn't care. my beloved cat dissapeared mysteriously and I HAVE TO SEE A THERAPIST to learn how to handle social situations with group therapy which scares me because im worried it wont work cuz im so nervous
i only sleep 3 hours a night because i cant shut off my brain and im not allowed to take drugs.
what should i do?