For so many years i have looked at the world and myself through the eyes of a paranoid, insecure, unsure, confused, angry, frustrated boy/man. Only within the last year through the help of Counselling and giving up drugs have i been able to start taking a look at who i really am. The trouble is when i sit down to try and think my head is still filled with negative valuing of situations experienced by myself where i have felt hurt. I have thought like this for so many years that i cannot always turn the thoughts off and this is why i struggle to see a clear path ahead and who i am. I know i am a 31 year old man with a career path, family, friends, hobbies etc, but when it comes to opinions, relaxing, understanding my life structure or thinking about improving what i have then i come unstuck. So i wonder where is my self concept or ID.