Should I see a professional?

[Cant-Say]

For as long as I can remember I haven't felt anything whether it be love or fear even anger. I guess the only way I could describe it is an 'emptiness'.

I have never really cared about anything either except my own gratification, for example my uncle recently died of cancer in front of me. Everyone around me was crying and mourning his death but I couldn't, The only thoughts that ran through my head were 'I'm glad it's over' and 'If that ever were to happen to me I would kill myself before I became helpless'.
I never felt bad for anyone regardless of their circumstances even if I was the primary cause.

Why can't I feel anything?

My entire life I have used people, lied and cheated (and worse) my way to what I've wanted.... These days I've learned to 'fit' in and fake emotions well or at least I think so, yet I live a private lifestyle and rarely talk to anyone.

What I'd like to know is why I've done what I've done? After reading here and elsewhere it has become clear to me that I definitely fit the profile of someone with an antisocial disorder. I have many dark secrets that I'm sure if I told a professional would result in me being locked up and studied like a lab rat.

Perhaps I may share my some of my proverbial skeletons with you for the sole purpose of trying to gain more information.

 

[Lana]

Hi Cant-Say;
First, welcome to Psychlinks. :hithere:

With regards to your questions...Psychlinks was created as a means to offer support and gives others space and time to ask questions and/or gain more information. However, here at Psychlinks, we do not engage in diagnosis of individuals. Many people here are just like you and I and are dealing with issues, but not all of us are trained (nor licensed) to diagnose or treat people. What we do here is recommend that people that have questions, or issues that cause them significant distress consult with a professional.

Having said that, I think the best place for you to start would be by visiting a psychologist or psychiatrist in your area and bringing your issues up with him or her. They will then determine if you need to see someone or not. They will also be able to offer you answers based on their skills and training.

 

[Retired]

I'm sure if I told a professional would result in me being locked up and studied like a lab rat

Unlikely to happen, because mental health professionals, like all health providers should not judge their patients or clients.

Their job is to listen to what you have to say, ask specific diagnostic questions and based on their training and clinical experience provide a competent diagnosis, along with a proposed treatment plan.

Then it's up to you, as a partner in your own health care, to discuss the treatment options with your health care provider, to figure out a plan that makes sense for you.

Feel free to ask all your questions here, as no one will judge what you say, and hopefully you might find some insights and information that can help you find the inner peace you seem to looking for.

Have you ever discussed these issues with your doctor, or consulted a mental health professional with your questions?

 

[ladylore]

:welcome2: to Psychlinks Cant-Say.

:goodpost: Lana and she has given you some great advise.

 

[Into The Light]

the rule of thumb is if something is impacting your quality of life, or something is on your mind a lot that you can't seem to work out on your own or with help from friends/family, then seeing a professional would be a good idea.

even it if ends up being only a few visits, that's great! and if it's something that needs more work than that, all the more power to you for having reached out for support and help.

 

[Sparrow]

Hello Cant-Say

Should I see a professional?

Why not? What've you got to lose? Give it a try.
Your post sounded pretty honest to me and I used to be a cold, heartless son of a bee... no smilies required.
Lab rats really did have more feelings than I did.
After a while I thought it really was a pretty crummy way to live though.
All the plastic smiles didn't help my emptiness much... just a cheap trick for lots of stupid people or so I thought.
Lot's of people running around with different kinds of magic bullets these days too. The one I like is called gut core honesty. It is hard though (I didn't just "see the light" or something).
But that's where a professional can also really help. Give one a try, or a second, or even a third one because your...worth it.
BTW, :welcome2: to Psychlinks.

 

[Cant-Say]

Hello Cant-Say

Why not? What've you got to lose? Give it a try.
Your post sounded pretty honest to me and I used to be a cold, heartless son of a bee... no smilies required.
Lab rats really did have more feelings than I did.
After a while I thought it really was a pretty crummy way to live though.
All the plastic smiles didn't help my emptiness much... just a cheap trick for lots of stupid people or so I thought.
Lot's of people running around with different kinds of magic bullets these days too. The one I like is called gut core honesty. It is hard though (I didn't just "see the light" or something).
But that's where a professional can also really help. Give one a try, or a second, or even a third one because your...worth it.
BTW, :welcome2: to Psychlinks.

I don't live a crumby life per say, I just want to find out why I am the way I am. I've always been this way, I don't think this will ever change.

I don't think I need help and so if I did see a doc it would be merely to learn more about myself, as opposed to help.

 

[Sparrow]

I don't think I need help and so if I did see a doc it would be merely to learn more about myself, as opposed to help.

Aside from help or support, there is a wealth of information to be found on this site, just look into the sub-forums or the search bar. But it's the job of a mental health specialist to help people, it's their profession. If you do see one it may help to have a list of questions you are seeking the answers or information about. I really hope you learn what you are trying to find out though Cant-Say... one way or another.