I’m the 57 year old daughter of a Narcissistic mother and now I am the only child/relative that will take care of her in her old age (87). I am a people pleaser at all cost especially mine. I have NO SELF CONFIDENCE OR ESTEEM and I feel that I have never actually grown up. I at this point in my life really resent my mother and wish I had never agreed to find her a house to live in around the corner from me. She would not move into assisted living because she doesn't like old people. As she gets older it gets worse. When I do snap back at her on occasions where I have been with her for hours (4 or 5) I have terrible guilt and question my own faith in God and in turn feel that even He can not love me. I am struggling but can't seem to find an answer that I can handle. I think this s a very important problem and it needs to be talked about more then it is.