juliajulia
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i was searching the internet for a long time for people that share my problem with no luck. i've decided to write about it here so that maybe somebody that has the same problem will write back to me because right now i feel like i'm the only one in the world with this awful problem.
I had a symbiotic relationship with my mother. She did not exist as a separate human being and fully pulled me into her chaotic inner world. As a result of this symbiosis I didn't develop as a separate person as well. I always felt like I don't exist. Empty. Hollow. That my body has nothing to do with my soul. When I look at myself in the mirror I don't know who I am. I know it in my head but not in my soul. I feel like everybody around me exist but I don't. and it makes it even more difficult.
I'm in psychological therapy but really want to know that there are other people somewhere in this world that share my problem. That i'm not the only one.
I had a symbiotic relationship with my mother. She did not exist as a separate human being and fully pulled me into her chaotic inner world. As a result of this symbiosis I didn't develop as a separate person as well. I always felt like I don't exist. Empty. Hollow. That my body has nothing to do with my soul. When I look at myself in the mirror I don't know who I am. I know it in my head but not in my soul. I feel like everybody around me exist but I don't. and it makes it even more difficult.
I'm in psychological therapy but really want to know that there are other people somewhere in this world that share my problem. That i'm not the only one.