Back again - need help

[stringbean]

Well i haven't been on here for a few weeks as the new level of Cipralex seemed to work but now i feel terrible.

My ocd in past has taken all sorts of forms and eventually i have been able to tell my self that if i was going to do any of the things i worried about then i would just do them and not worry about them. Or if i was a bad person i wouldn't worry about being a bad person.

I am back to comparing and doubting my love in my relationship, i keep trying to stop this loop by saying if i didn't love my husband, I wouldn't be worried about not loving him, i would just not be with him! But its going round and round, i see happy couples and think we are not like that or someone makes me laugh and i think would my husband said or done that! even down to the tone of his voice! its driving me nuts as now the other ocd is coming in as a result of the anxiety. i.e. harming etc

God its so hard and each minute, second is a struggle, please someone give me some advice, i feel wretched- the worst thing is all i want is my husband and me and our child to be happy but i keep jeopardizing it.

 

[David Baxter PhD]

Medication can't do everything, stringbean. Are you currently seeing a therapist to help you with this?

If not, I would recommend that you consider it. If for some reason this isn't feasible, look for a copy of Amazon.com: Brain Lock: Free Yourself from Obsessive-Compulsive Behavior (9780060987114): Jeffrey M. Schwartz, Beverly Beyette and read and follow the suggestions there.

 

[stringbean]

thank you David. I would like to see a therapist but with the good old NHS its not so easy.
Can you tell me - from what i have written on my last post, does it sound like OCD or am i totally losing it?

 

[David Baxter PhD]

They certainly sound like OCD worrying to me. That doesn't mean that you meet the full criteria for a diagnosis of OCD or that there aren't other more appropriate diagnoses where OCD-like worrying or obsessing can be associated features (for example, bipolar disorder, among others).

The important message to repeat to yourself is that such thoughts/worries represent insecurities, anxieties, or fears, not reality or intention.

 

[stringbean]

oh god i hope its the ocd not any other thing! i was diaganosed with obsessive thinking - ocd many years ago and seen numerous therapists and phsychs over the years so hold onto that, as not sure i could cope with any other diagnosis.

Sorry about the other thread would hope you had recovered after three years! lol

 

[Been there Done that]

Are people with OCD insecure? I often have racing OCD thoughts that tie into a knot where I feel I could act out on my impulses BUT NEVER DO! Is this a waste of time or what? I am also bipolar so I will talk to my doctor about this?

 

[David Baxter PhD]

As I mentioned recently in this thread or elsewhere, OCD-like obsessive thoughts are not uncommon in Bipolar Disorder. Definitely talk to your doctor about it since some of the medications used for Bipolar Disorder are better than others as anti-obsessionals (or your doctor may want to add an anti-obsessional to the medications you're taking if they are working well for you).

Are people with OCD insecure?

I don't think that's necessarily true but OCD is an anxiety disorder at its foundation.

 

[stringbean]

Thankyou for your replies- David is it ok to private message you as a few things have worried me from the post!

 

[David Baxter PhD]

I prefer that people ask questions in the thread where possible, since that way others can also benefit from the replies. If it's something that you don't want to post, you can send me a PM and I'll answer when I get time.