It's 6:45am here. I've been going to bed between 4am and 8am for almost a month now. A few days ago I stayed up 'round the clock with hopes of being tired enough to sleep at around 8pm the next night but it didn't work. I stayed up through the night anyway.
This is probably just a frustrating phase due to a work load a few weeks ago when my husband and I had to stay up two nights in a row printing for a deadline. I've always been a bit of an insomniac but it's gotten better as I've grown older. It still usually takes me between 1 and 3 hours to fall asleep, but usually I can count on sleeping through after I've fallen asleep these days. Unless something goes 'thump' in the night. I used to wake up if someone breathed differently, if a door opened in the house, if the cat walked into the room. Now it takes more to wake me up.
I like sleeping, I think I just don't like falling asleep. Willfully giving myself over to unconsiousness. I often feel anxious just as I start to settle down. I do all the classic stuff, worrying about things I might forget, etc., worrying that if I don't sleep NOW I won't get enough sleep, getting angry because I can't sleep, and so on. Sometimes I don't get into that cycle and I still lay awake for hours. Sometimes I just want to avoid having to deal with not being able to sleep, like now, so I just don't go to bed.
My husband and I just rode our bikes across the USA, 144 days, and I have never slept better in my life! It was glorious. We would pitch the tent, cook, eat, and SLEEP! We slept through the secondary winds of a tornado(20miles away), and I didn't wake up. I wish I could ride my bike 6 hours a day now. I sleep better when I exercise a lot, but I'm not very disciplined. I used to drink to inebriation and sleep or take three or four times the maximum dose or some over the counter sleeping aid but they usually didn't knock me out anyway. I just felt like crap the next day.
There are things I really love about sleeping. I have bizarre dreams, beautiful grand disturbing dreams, almost-but-not-quite nightmare dreams, but I don't remember them as often, and when I don't I miss them. I've even tried taking B supplements because someone told me that they had read a study claiming that B Vitamins enhanced dream recall. Didn't do a thing for me.
Anyway, it is 7am, and I am thread jumping because I am new to this forum, and I find it too interesting. Perhaps I am using it as an excuse to stay awake?
This is probably just a frustrating phase due to a work load a few weeks ago when my husband and I had to stay up two nights in a row printing for a deadline. I've always been a bit of an insomniac but it's gotten better as I've grown older. It still usually takes me between 1 and 3 hours to fall asleep, but usually I can count on sleeping through after I've fallen asleep these days. Unless something goes 'thump' in the night. I used to wake up if someone breathed differently, if a door opened in the house, if the cat walked into the room. Now it takes more to wake me up.
I like sleeping, I think I just don't like falling asleep. Willfully giving myself over to unconsiousness. I often feel anxious just as I start to settle down. I do all the classic stuff, worrying about things I might forget, etc., worrying that if I don't sleep NOW I won't get enough sleep, getting angry because I can't sleep, and so on. Sometimes I don't get into that cycle and I still lay awake for hours. Sometimes I just want to avoid having to deal with not being able to sleep, like now, so I just don't go to bed.
My husband and I just rode our bikes across the USA, 144 days, and I have never slept better in my life! It was glorious. We would pitch the tent, cook, eat, and SLEEP! We slept through the secondary winds of a tornado(20miles away), and I didn't wake up. I wish I could ride my bike 6 hours a day now. I sleep better when I exercise a lot, but I'm not very disciplined. I used to drink to inebriation and sleep or take three or four times the maximum dose or some over the counter sleeping aid but they usually didn't knock me out anyway. I just felt like crap the next day.
There are things I really love about sleeping. I have bizarre dreams, beautiful grand disturbing dreams, almost-but-not-quite nightmare dreams, but I don't remember them as often, and when I don't I miss them. I've even tried taking B supplements because someone told me that they had read a study claiming that B Vitamins enhanced dream recall. Didn't do a thing for me.
Anyway, it is 7am, and I am thread jumping because I am new to this forum, and I find it too interesting. Perhaps I am using it as an excuse to stay awake?
Mari
