Hi. Call me Christy. I have just come out of a deep depression/anxiety period. Just snapped out of it and went a little hypo manic. Not too much. I have leveled out for now. You never know what's around the corner though. I used to have real highs and lows when I was younger. [hate to say younger! ] I'm 44 now, but I don't look it at all. But that's beside the point. It took a long time to diagnose myself and try to get help. I haven't gotten any proper help yet. I'm only on Zeldox now and I feel like I should be on something more. I find myself tensed up for no reason, say while watching TV. That bothers me. And I guess I'm just waiting for the next depression to hit. And for a long time I've hated going to sleep. It's worse now. My husband snores sooo loud. I've been on sleeping pills for so long. But the side effects of Zeldox make it worse to go to sleep,but it does put you to sleep just getting there is so hard.
How crappy it is that It's acceptable that I have Crohn's Disease and IBS. And just next to having cervical cancer [got myself a hysterectomy btw]. But broken brains are another issue. Not taken well by the general population. I got very well at hiding it. Even other doctors aren't well at dealing with it [non psych's].
I'm not too sure what to do next to help myself. Well I guess I know but I don't want to do it. Now that the word is out to everyone that I could go to Homewood for intensive therapy, everyone wants me to go. Since no one has helped me. But I do have a very anti-social part of me. Even though I'm a friendly nice person. And the programs make me feel very anti-social. Bi-Polar you see. So I feel traped. I love my independance. And my husband is my rock. He loves me no matter what. I know I'm very lucky to have him.
I don't bother thinking about the future. I've never cared for life too much. If it weren't for my husband I probably wouldn't be here. I must mention Joey my Siamese cat. I love him and he loves me. He's patiently waiting for me to finish being on the computer. Siamese are different, their like part dog, very loyal. So I'll go off and be with him now.
How crappy it is that It's acceptable that I have Crohn's Disease and IBS. And just next to having cervical cancer [got myself a hysterectomy btw]. But broken brains are another issue. Not taken well by the general population. I got very well at hiding it. Even other doctors aren't well at dealing with it [non psych's].
I'm not too sure what to do next to help myself. Well I guess I know but I don't want to do it. Now that the word is out to everyone that I could go to Homewood for intensive therapy, everyone wants me to go. Since no one has helped me. But I do have a very anti-social part of me. Even though I'm a friendly nice person. And the programs make me feel very anti-social. Bi-Polar you see. So I feel traped. I love my independance. And my husband is my rock. He loves me no matter what. I know I'm very lucky to have him.
I don't bother thinking about the future. I've never cared for life too much. If it weren't for my husband I probably wouldn't be here. I must mention Joey my Siamese cat. I love him and he loves me. He's patiently waiting for me to finish being on the computer. Siamese are different, their like part dog, very loyal. So I'll go off and be with him now.