David Baxter PhD
Late Founder
Healing Shame
by Joanna Poppink, EatingDisorderRecovery.com
September 10, 2012
"Why do I feel ashamed of myself because I was abused? I know it was not my fault. Why do I feel the need to hide it, even from my trusted therapist?" asks a reader.
You seem to believe, as many people do, that intellectual knowledge changes emotions. Internal changes don't work that way. We can't decide to love someone because they meet our intellectually created criteria and then actually love them. Nor can we end strongly held beliefs because we know they have no basis in reality. Nor can we decide to feel good about ourselves and lose our sense of shame because we know we have nothing to be ashamed of.
We can, however, use our intellectual prowess to help us find emotional healing experiences.
When we have beliefs about ourselves that are harsh and incorrect we need a climate of emotional healing. When we expect a harsh response from someone, and we get kindness it's a shock to the system. We stay in with our shame and self blame.
We respond to kindness and acceptance by such thoughts as:
Our harsh attitude weakens. We wonder, if by some strange and miraculous perspective, we are not as bad as we thought.
If the respect, kindness and acceptance continues from this trustworthy person we respect, then over time we enjoy and accept their response to us. We feel good in their presence. We like ourselves in their presence.
Then, over time, we internalize their caring so we feel that kindness, respect and acceptance from within when we are not physically in their presence.
If this continues, we make the change from carrying their positive response within us to making that voice truly our own.
Thinking can put us in the healing environment. The emotional changes come from healing emotional experiences.
My thought and association: "The quality of mercy is not strained. It droppeth like the gentle rain from Heaven." William Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice.
So comes the emotional healing, drop by drop, to eventually reveal unashamed loveliness.
Joanna Poppink, MFT, is a licensed psychotherapist since 1981 in Los Angeles, California. She is also an author and lecturer. In her practice Joanna incorporates the latest findings of brain development and mindfulness practices in order to help women evolve beyond their dependence on eating disorders and move into a life of freedom and health. She is the author of highly praised Healing Your Hungry Heart: Recovering From Your Eating Disorder, 2011, Conari Press.
by Joanna Poppink, EatingDisorderRecovery.com
September 10, 2012
"Why do I feel ashamed of myself because I was abused? I know it was not my fault. Why do I feel the need to hide it, even from my trusted therapist?" asks a reader.
You seem to believe, as many people do, that intellectual knowledge changes emotions. Internal changes don't work that way. We can't decide to love someone because they meet our intellectually created criteria and then actually love them. Nor can we end strongly held beliefs because we know they have no basis in reality. Nor can we decide to feel good about ourselves and lose our sense of shame because we know we have nothing to be ashamed of.
We can, however, use our intellectual prowess to help us find emotional healing experiences.
When we have beliefs about ourselves that are harsh and incorrect we need a climate of emotional healing. When we expect a harsh response from someone, and we get kindness it's a shock to the system. We stay in with our shame and self blame.
We respond to kindness and acceptance by such thoughts as:
- the person doesn't know what she's talking about.
- the person doesn't understand what I really did or said or experienced.
- the person is pretending
Our harsh attitude weakens. We wonder, if by some strange and miraculous perspective, we are not as bad as we thought.
If the respect, kindness and acceptance continues from this trustworthy person we respect, then over time we enjoy and accept their response to us. We feel good in their presence. We like ourselves in their presence.
Then, over time, we internalize their caring so we feel that kindness, respect and acceptance from within when we are not physically in their presence.
If this continues, we make the change from carrying their positive response within us to making that voice truly our own.
Thinking can put us in the healing environment. The emotional changes come from healing emotional experiences.
My thought and association: "The quality of mercy is not strained. It droppeth like the gentle rain from Heaven." William Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice.
So comes the emotional healing, drop by drop, to eventually reveal unashamed loveliness.
Joanna Poppink, MFT, is a licensed psychotherapist since 1981 in Los Angeles, California. She is also an author and lecturer. In her practice Joanna incorporates the latest findings of brain development and mindfulness practices in order to help women evolve beyond their dependence on eating disorders and move into a life of freedom and health. She is the author of highly praised Healing Your Hungry Heart: Recovering From Your Eating Disorder, 2011, Conari Press.
