Hi

[Wondering]

Goodness, I'm not sure where to begin. Well, first of all I've had an anxiety and panic disorder since I was 7. I've become very skilled with dealing with it and picking up on when I'm having an anxiety attack, but I was reading several of the posts here and I realized that I may not have everything as under control as I would like to think.

Lately, I've been having stomach problems, but only at night- I've been ignoring it for the past three days, but I wondered if there could be a link between my anxiety disorder and these stomach pains or possibly they're caused by something else. I'm not sure. It just seems strange that it's only at night.

Another but unrelated note a couple weeks ago I cut myself for the first time, I don't know if its a big deal, as its never happened before. Besides that I couldn't stand the thought of my parents knowing.

Sorry, that was an awfully long post on two very different topics- I was just wondering if anyone had any thoughts or words of advice. Thanks

 

[ladylore]

Re: hi

Welcome to Psychlinks Wondering.

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[NicNak]

Re: hi

:hithere: Wondering. :welcome: to Psychlinks.

It is important you let your doctors know that you cut yourself. It is very important that they know that.

There are quite a few of us here, who have self injured or self harmed.

In the Self-Injury - Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum there are lots of useful tips on how to over come the urges as well as how to tell people about it.

Self-help ideas for people who self-injure - Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum

Talking about self-injury - Psychlinks Psychology Self-Help & Mental Health Support Forum

 

[Jazzey]

Re: hi

Welcome to psychlinks Wondering! :flowers:

 

[simplyred]

Re: hi

Welcome Wondering,
Please be sure to discuss both of these topics with your doctor and any other resources like, couseling etc, to make sure that they are able to help you accordingly and there are many informative pages in this website that you could read as some of the others have posted for you.
simplyred

 

[Into The Light]

welcome wondering :hithere: your stomach pains could very well be anxiety related, but of course i cannot tell for sure. is there anything at night that is causing you to feel anxiety? have you spoken to your doctor about the pains?

 

[Halo]

Welcome to Psychlinks Wondering :welcome2:

I am glad that you decided to join us and I hope to see you around :wave:

 

[Wondering]

Hey, sorry I wasn't very clear, I meant that I cut myself for the first and last time two weeks ago. It was a very stupid thing for me to do, I knew better but I was overcome by such hate for myself. I was angry with myself because my boyfriend broke up with me. Notice how that sentence doesn't really make much sense. I had deluded myself into thinking we could get married some day. That was my own stupidity.

As far as my stomach goes, I've had IBS in the past so I'm not sure if it's that or the recent stress that I've been under lately. I've never actually been diagnosed, but I had a lot of the problems of IBS.

Also, I'm studying abroad right now and I don't have access to any medical facilities- well, other than the ER and my stomach problems are not that bad, they're just uncomfortable and kind of painful- but again, only at night.

At home I go to a psychiatrist but he doesn't do any counseling and well I've never found counseling helpful I went for nearly a year and at present I'm actually doing really well. I'm taking medication which has changed my life dramatically.

What I'm worried about, I guess, is that whatever possessed me to cut myself that one time may crop up again if I don't figure out what it is. I've had people break up with me before and it's never produced that effect. I just don't know. The hate that overcame me that day took me off guard, I wasn't expecting it, I didn't realize that I had that in me.

So, I was hoping I guess that by talking with people that have similar experiences I might be able to work through this and figure out a solution.

Oh, and thanks for all your comments

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Goodness, I'm sorry, I forgot to answer your question Into the Light. The answer is no, I don't have anything that scares me or worries me at night, if anything I'm really pleased to be going to bed. I love sleep- probably too much. Going to bed has always been my favorite time of the day.

 

[ladylore]

What I'm worried about, I guess, is that whatever possessed me to cut myself that one time may crop up again if I don't figure out what it is. I've had people break up with me before and it's never produced that effect. I just don't know. The hate that overcame me that day took me off guard, I wasn't expecting it, I didn't realize that I had that in me.

Feel free to start another thread around this Wondering. Psychlinks has both a forum for anger and one for self-injury. It might help.

 

[forgetmenot]

Hi Wondering welcome. It would be a good thing to discuss your self harm to a councillor maybe at the school your studying. Just having someone in person to talk to can clear things up for you. Lots of helpful people here too take care mary

 

[Wondering]

Thanks ladylore I think I'll do that.
Mary, I'm afraid my school is so small that don't offer those kind of services, otherwise I would go probably. Thank you though