How much of it is 'me'

[AmZ]

I hope that I manage to get across my question clearly. The title is not what I want to say really.

What I want to say, is that I am diagnosed with BPD. Along with it comes symptoms. Perhaps anger issues, perhaps self-harming, perhaps risky behaviour.

If I could pin point one now that I am really struggling with is the self-harming. But can I just say one day OK this is what I am struggling with but wherever I am, I CAN'T DO IT. Whether I am in the hospital or in the rehabilitation program or out in the 'real world'.

Surely it's not so simple as to say I'm not going to do 'x' but will take time. And what if it takes me a year or three years and they say I can't self-harm in the rehab program. What will I do then? It's a constant battle. And sometimes I lose.

So I have a few questions going on there really.

Thanks.

 

[forgetmenot]

You take each day and get through it without self harming don't look so far ahead ok. Sometime just get through the hour that way you know next time you get the urge you have won before you can win again against it hugs