Hi i wont say my name ,but im here cause my life is not goiing as i originally planned.
I tried beiin positive, nice, helping others , beiing patient, not complaining etc...there is no results.
I think the only thing that seperates happy people from sad ones is that they believe they are happy and convinced about it.
Right now miraculously im not feeling low and sad as the whole week . I just came back from the mall. I went by myself . I go very often since i have no friends. Sometimes I come back very sad cause i see a bunch of males with girsl I would dream about . I get jealous easily but all I want is a one shot with one girl for me. Im 27 and my days are sometimes so painfull. I have no jobs and am at my parents. My dad is very silent and dosent love conversating. My mother is paranoid and always worried by us. My brother dosent like talking to me, and my sister always pushed me away even if I wanted to have a friendly relation with all...At the end I decicided to find refuge in computer games , and videogames. This summer it's all i did and now since the temperature changed for some reasons im not enjoying it at all. I workout out a lot aswell and take supplements to help me. At the end, the reason i feel sad is becomes I dreamed of meeting and having sex with a bunch of women in my life and I realize that from 15-27 I only paid hookers to have sex with me. Sometimes I go to the mall thinking by chance I will just meet someone but it never happens. I have no where to go but I still wanna meet a few hot women and perhaps get a chance of choosing my first and probably definative girlfriend. Time is passing so fast and I made 0 progress. Sometimes I think about it too much to the point that my heart hurts and my brain starts telling me I suck at life look at all these people who are not even in good shape , funny or attracting meeting these ladies. I just feel out of this world sometimes its like im weaker and nothing compared to others sometimes I feel Im superior and perhaps i intimadate others since im so good looking and smart. Who knows! At the end , im by myself and sad and I don't want that anymore!!
I had social anxiety when I was small they gave me a bunch of meds at 17 (effexor at a low dose however I think). I regret taking that since I think they can screw your hormones levels especially at that age. I came off the meds at 21 and am not sure if my anxiety is back or whatever. Anxiety or not I just want to find friendship love and peace with others and myself . I'm tired of feeling like this. Money is also important and im sure I will make plenty when i will feel better . ONly problem is ive been feeling like this for too long now ...Im tired of desiring some unknown woman I see and having the feeling that its a dream...Im a man and I was put on this hearth to have some sort of relation with a lady ...I guess this is the ultimate failure in life since love, sex is the reason we are in this world and the reason why it exists!
I wanna find solutions wich is why im here , IM ready to take any advices try stuff.
I tried beiin positive, nice, helping others , beiing patient, not complaining etc...there is no results.
I think the only thing that seperates happy people from sad ones is that they believe they are happy and convinced about it.
Right now miraculously im not feeling low and sad as the whole week . I just came back from the mall. I went by myself . I go very often since i have no friends. Sometimes I come back very sad cause i see a bunch of males with girsl I would dream about . I get jealous easily but all I want is a one shot with one girl for me. Im 27 and my days are sometimes so painfull. I have no jobs and am at my parents. My dad is very silent and dosent love conversating. My mother is paranoid and always worried by us. My brother dosent like talking to me, and my sister always pushed me away even if I wanted to have a friendly relation with all...At the end I decicided to find refuge in computer games , and videogames. This summer it's all i did and now since the temperature changed for some reasons im not enjoying it at all. I workout out a lot aswell and take supplements to help me. At the end, the reason i feel sad is becomes I dreamed of meeting and having sex with a bunch of women in my life and I realize that from 15-27 I only paid hookers to have sex with me. Sometimes I go to the mall thinking by chance I will just meet someone but it never happens. I have no where to go but I still wanna meet a few hot women and perhaps get a chance of choosing my first and probably definative girlfriend. Time is passing so fast and I made 0 progress. Sometimes I think about it too much to the point that my heart hurts and my brain starts telling me I suck at life look at all these people who are not even in good shape , funny or attracting meeting these ladies. I just feel out of this world sometimes its like im weaker and nothing compared to others sometimes I feel Im superior and perhaps i intimadate others since im so good looking and smart. Who knows! At the end , im by myself and sad and I don't want that anymore!!
I had social anxiety when I was small they gave me a bunch of meds at 17 (effexor at a low dose however I think). I regret taking that since I think they can screw your hormones levels especially at that age. I came off the meds at 21 and am not sure if my anxiety is back or whatever. Anxiety or not I just want to find friendship love and peace with others and myself . I'm tired of feeling like this. Money is also important and im sure I will make plenty when i will feel better . ONly problem is ive been feeling like this for too long now ...Im tired of desiring some unknown woman I see and having the feeling that its a dream...Im a man and I was put on this hearth to have some sort of relation with a lady ...I guess this is the ultimate failure in life since love, sex is the reason we are in this world and the reason why it exists!
I wanna find solutions wich is why im here , IM ready to take any advices try stuff.
well done for being so open and honest about how you are feeling, I'm quite sure you will get some help and advice on this forum. 
