The kicker is that mom refuses to acknowledge she has an issue. Its always the rest of the world who has issues, not her, she's perfect. Therefore getting her to therapy on on medication is not an option. My older sister and I, however, have both been through extensive therapy to help us deal with our emotionally and physically abusive childhoods. My therapists only advise was to physically distance myself from my mother-- i.e.: move. Which I did. However...
Due to the financial crisis, have been forced to move back home with her parents. I'm trying hard to find jobs, but the economy stinks here in the US. I have a small part time job currently- that is all i can find. But it is not enough to pay my bills, never mind save to move out. The part-time job doesn't touch my debt.
My father is retired Navy - spent most of my childhood on a ship and not as an active parent. This left the daily parenting to mom and dad was used for 'backup' when we were extremely 'naughty' (in her eyes.)
Now that he is home more often, he has been told by my mother that he has no 'right' to parent or make rules in the house because he was never around earlier in our lives. Therefore he is emotionally unavailable and, when pressed, 'sides' with mom's behavior even though he admits its unstable.
Returning to living with her due to my financial need has proved problematic.
Even when unprovoked, mom will physically lash out.
I have asked my mother to not hit me. I have asked my father to intervene. I have tried to stay out of her way - at which point I get emotional manipulation and even the destruction of personal property in a means of control.
Two days ago, I was speaking w/ my nephew when I suddenly got hit by my mother for no reason. Unfortunately, I turned and hit her back (a light whack on the arm, even though she hit me VERY hard to the head/face)
Now, my mother has told my father that I "Beat" her and that if I "beat" on her again, he must 'evict' me.
I have no where to go. I am in debt up to my eyeballs & have no ability to move out. I have no money.
Needless to say, the idea of being homeless is not fun.
But HOW do I live with someone who is physically violent & permitted to hit?? My dad has given my mother cart blanche to hit me w/o any repercussions-- I can neither defend myself, walk away, nor hit back nor even push her away to get myself out of striking range. Those are all considered things that I can be 'evicted' for-- i have been told I must take her hitting or be homeless.
I know I will never change her.
However, what I don't know is how I will be able to live here for a few more months (hopefully) while I job hunt and try to find a place to live.
How do I live with her when she hits? How do I live with someone with BPD who is physically violent & has no limits on their actions?
I am at a loss here.
Any suggestions would be helpful, please.
Rationalizing & discussion don't work. I don't know what to do. Please help me understand how to live here until I get on my feet- ...living with someone who is physically abusive. I have no where to go.
Due to the financial crisis, have been forced to move back home with her parents. I'm trying hard to find jobs, but the economy stinks here in the US. I have a small part time job currently- that is all i can find. But it is not enough to pay my bills, never mind save to move out. The part-time job doesn't touch my debt.
My father is retired Navy - spent most of my childhood on a ship and not as an active parent. This left the daily parenting to mom and dad was used for 'backup' when we were extremely 'naughty' (in her eyes.)
Now that he is home more often, he has been told by my mother that he has no 'right' to parent or make rules in the house because he was never around earlier in our lives. Therefore he is emotionally unavailable and, when pressed, 'sides' with mom's behavior even though he admits its unstable.
Returning to living with her due to my financial need has proved problematic.
Even when unprovoked, mom will physically lash out.
I have asked my mother to not hit me. I have asked my father to intervene. I have tried to stay out of her way - at which point I get emotional manipulation and even the destruction of personal property in a means of control.
Two days ago, I was speaking w/ my nephew when I suddenly got hit by my mother for no reason. Unfortunately, I turned and hit her back (a light whack on the arm, even though she hit me VERY hard to the head/face)
Now, my mother has told my father that I "Beat" her and that if I "beat" on her again, he must 'evict' me.
I have no where to go. I am in debt up to my eyeballs & have no ability to move out. I have no money.
Needless to say, the idea of being homeless is not fun.
But HOW do I live with someone who is physically violent & permitted to hit?? My dad has given my mother cart blanche to hit me w/o any repercussions-- I can neither defend myself, walk away, nor hit back nor even push her away to get myself out of striking range. Those are all considered things that I can be 'evicted' for-- i have been told I must take her hitting or be homeless.
I know I will never change her.
However, what I don't know is how I will be able to live here for a few more months (hopefully) while I job hunt and try to find a place to live.
How do I live with her when she hits? How do I live with someone with BPD who is physically violent & has no limits on their actions?
I am at a loss here.
Any suggestions would be helpful, please.
Rationalizing & discussion don't work. I don't know what to do. Please help me understand how to live here until I get on my feet- ...living with someone who is physically abusive. I have no where to go.