Michelle M
Member
Today was tragic for me. My best friend for 15 yrs , my dog Pippy was put to sleep. She was a tea cup chihuahua. She was always there for me and here last night l was on here talking about side effects to Prednisone...
As you might know l am estranged from my children and grandson and this dog loved me more then my own children..l was lucky to have my Mom closeby to be with me while l held her as she was put to sleep.
l came home to clean the blankets and items that belonged to Pippy and l realized my Dog loved me more then my own children..l shared so many tears with my dog and l always stayed strong to take care of my pets..l tried to stay strong in my hope that my children would not act this way and l finally had to let go for my own sanity..
Today, l had to let go of Pippy to free her from her aches and pains..l held her and talked to her and l prayed my Father or Daughter (both are deceased)to take care and love her for me until we meet again.
l just cannot understand how my children act like l do not exist when there is such finality in Death. l wondered today if either of my children had any thoughts that something bad happened or feel my pain as they went about their day.
When my baby was on life support, my husband left me to sign the paper to donate her heart and that is something l had to do alone and it was the hardest thing l had to do. Today just sucked my energy right out of me. lt was another hard moment l had to do alone. Life sure sucks sometimes..Good Night all...
As you might know l am estranged from my children and grandson and this dog loved me more then my own children..l was lucky to have my Mom closeby to be with me while l held her as she was put to sleep.
l came home to clean the blankets and items that belonged to Pippy and l realized my Dog loved me more then my own children..l shared so many tears with my dog and l always stayed strong to take care of my pets..l tried to stay strong in my hope that my children would not act this way and l finally had to let go for my own sanity..
Today, l had to let go of Pippy to free her from her aches and pains..l held her and talked to her and l prayed my Father or Daughter (both are deceased)to take care and love her for me until we meet again.
l just cannot understand how my children act like l do not exist when there is such finality in Death. l wondered today if either of my children had any thoughts that something bad happened or feel my pain as they went about their day.
When my baby was on life support, my husband left me to sign the paper to donate her heart and that is something l had to do alone and it was the hardest thing l had to do. Today just sucked my energy right out of me. lt was another hard moment l had to do alone. Life sure sucks sometimes..Good Night all...
