chaos is me
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Hello all.
I have been looking for a place to talk to other people for years and I hope I found the place.
A little history first.
I have spent the last 15 years dealing with a person who has many different psychological disorders ranging from Multiple personalities disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, border line personality disorder to severe depression.
We have had a rough go over the last 3 to 4 years and it has strained our marriage to it's breaking point. We had separated last July to work things out, she moved in with her Mother and I moved in with my parents. We were supposed to take things slow but while living there she was hospitalized and I had to move into her place to look after our daughter. Her mom (who hates me) kicked my wife and daughter out of the house, the only place she had to go was back with me. This was a okay situation for a little while but seeing as the problems that persisted before were still there the calm only lasted for so long.
She recently got her own apartment but could not move into until September, we were having a argument and I had had enough and asked her to leave.
Now I do love my wife with all my heart but I think I have lost a lot of things over the last 15 years. Her biggest complaint about me is that I never tell her how I am feeling but as I tried to explain to her why when she was feeling in the gutter at her lowest point would I try and open myself up to her and bring her down more. I think at some point I closed myself down emotionally because I never knew what I was going to come home to.
Hope I cam to the right place
Thaks
CIM
I have been looking for a place to talk to other people for years and I hope I found the place.
A little history first.
I have spent the last 15 years dealing with a person who has many different psychological disorders ranging from Multiple personalities disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, border line personality disorder to severe depression.
We have had a rough go over the last 3 to 4 years and it has strained our marriage to it's breaking point. We had separated last July to work things out, she moved in with her Mother and I moved in with my parents. We were supposed to take things slow but while living there she was hospitalized and I had to move into her place to look after our daughter. Her mom (who hates me) kicked my wife and daughter out of the house, the only place she had to go was back with me. This was a okay situation for a little while but seeing as the problems that persisted before were still there the calm only lasted for so long.
She recently got her own apartment but could not move into until September, we were having a argument and I had had enough and asked her to leave.
Now I do love my wife with all my heart but I think I have lost a lot of things over the last 15 years. Her biggest complaint about me is that I never tell her how I am feeling but as I tried to explain to her why when she was feeling in the gutter at her lowest point would I try and open myself up to her and bring her down more. I think at some point I closed myself down emotionally because I never knew what I was going to come home to.
Hope I cam to the right place
Thaks
CIM
